[Born To Fly But I fall Without My Love`]

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Chef or a saleman??

last evening, i met steve and stanley, stanley is one of my boss in L`emzonie( last time i work, a pasta resturant) . he offer me a 1.4k to be chef de partie... haha hmm am i going back in white?? kitchen?? 1.4k is quite high in the market.... but not as high as my pay now.. but working hrs will not be so long, work load won`t be so much.... it just getting hotter only... hmm give him the answer on mid of july...But working in kitchen give me more secure in my career, instead of my current job, dun know when i will kanna sack.. no prospect there... nothing much to learn... haiz~~~~ hmmm life are so lost to me now... i have to chose my path, where should i stand?? when should i walk?? who should i meet???

My story, my family, my mum...
Now is 510am, i can`t sleep well, haiz~~~ maybe sleep too much in the afternoon.
hmmm... nothing much to said, times really flies, now is going to july,
Went to a cousin`s wedding. saw my relative.. it been 3 yrs i never saw them, miss the time when we are small, we always play at ah gong house.... but things change , when i was 13, my mother separate with my dad. so it been long i never saw them.. only once in 2002 new year time.. pay a visit on them... haha... i just realise i got a new baby cousin. he only 3 yrs old.. haha cute guy.. hug him for a while.. In the wedding, when my ah gong saw me, he cried... dun know why.. maybe i too handsome.. haha anyway remember my mum told me that my ah gong dun wan us... maybe he cried because i still willing to visit,, haiz~~~ anyway all the things happen liao.. all is past, dun wish to bring out.. just hold his hand... ni hao ma?? must take care...
hmm... my father still the same, haiz~~~ dun know wat to say... i hope i won`t be like him, i will work hard... will not be playboy and slacker, lazy like him(that y my mother separate with him) not a good husband, always bully my mum.. anyway since the separate, i never call him pa pa... i know my dad was dead...... i dun really hate him, without him, i will not be here.. but he should be happy to have a good wife like my mum... he should be very sorry to my mum.. not to me... my mum suffer a lot... so is my turn to let my mum be happy.. sorry mum, i never really care for you... but i will....

carving itself again at 1:39 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

A letter.

Blk 5, Hershearts,
Lovestreet, #512-1314,
S`pore 51205

Blk 160, Myhearts,
Lonelystreet,#215-1314,
S`pore 215160
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To her,

Hello, how have you been doing? You seem to be busy, i really hope to share your buren, althought i have mine. Have you eaten your lunch, must take care yourself le...

Do you know something, i think pig really fall in love with monkey. How? do you think they will be together?

I try to be there for you.

For you that you dun know my heart.

Looking in your eyes, give me a special feeling. Talking to you, that is no lies between.

Walking with you, thinking of hold your hand. Watching movie, give you hugs to keep you warm.

I am falling in love with you. Wanted to tell you, but i so weak.

I dun wan to lost you,Cos i love you...

Now,

You are in my mind everyday, i tried to make you out of my mind.. somehow i can`t.

I told myself, No... no love, cannot like you... But somehow i can`t.

Why,

I am failure in love, 4 times relation is a failure.

I afriad you will become the 5th.

Dun wan to hurt you...

I not a very good guy anyway, dun really know how to coax a girl, sorry if i make you angry.

I know, i not the one you love. I just a normal friend to you, but to me, you are not,

I have special feeling on you, i hope to take away, but i can`t. Sorry...

And do you know something, i had that special feeling when i know you.

Do you heard my heart???

By your lover pig,

carving itself again at 5:24 AM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Love Poem came...

Love poem came,
When someone enter your path,
Be a part of your life.
When a star shine u,
Brighten your life.
When she is the one,
Staying beside you...
Love poem will come to your mind,
Thought of writing it to you,
Before it came to your mind,
It goes throught your heart,
That is Love Poem...

Love and Dream

I dream of becoming a strongest person,
But i am so weak,
I dream of becoming a richest person,
But i am so poor,
I dream of becoming a handsome person,
But i am so ugly,
I deam of becoming a sucesseful person,
But i give up half way,

I dream of flying in the sky,
But i fall without my wings

I cry...

But you came.....

You give me dreams that i really want,
You make me stronger by running with me,
You make me save money by giving me love,
You make me look great in your heart,
You make me sucess by encourage me,
You make fly but i fall,
I will fall into your hugs.....

Even those dream don`t come true,
But i know...
i won`t dream again,
Because i have you,
My dreams are true,
I love you.....

carving itself again at 8:16 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005

Missing Someone

After so many days... i miss someone, someone not in SG

Missing her smiling face, her voice, her cute patten, everything of her.

Missing her, wanted to talk to her, wanted her to feel my sadness and happyness,

Wanted to know what she is doing, talk to me, my missing person,

Hopping to see her again....

very tired... everytime i am very tired... work is getting heavy, no off this week, next week also.. My life begin to lose colours, Stars dun shine on me again, feel so tired, let me rest.....

Haiz~~~~ just brought a new phone s700i... haha no time to find out the function... i like this phone...very style....NICe, now i am broke...

One more thing... sorry to some friends... u all kpet asking me out.. but due to work.. i can`t... very sorry... i also wan to some out with you all... take care..

carving itself again at 7:19 AM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

One World Different Lifes..

One Love different kind of feeling ,
One life different kind of ending,
One food different kind of person,
One word different kind of outcome,
One flower different kind of smell,
One father different kind of sons,
One money different kind of lifestyle
One man different kind of lady
One lady different kind of man,
One heart different kind of love
One you different kind of me......

Very tired, keep on working and working, must wake up... and do my work properly..... .haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

carving itself again at 8:38 AM

One World Different Lifes..

carving itself again at 8:32 AM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

To someone who need love...

I know you needs love,
I need it too,
Everyone needs it too.

When you are lonely,
When you are sad,
When you are down,
You need someone,
Someone to be by your side,
Someone to cheer you up,
Someone to catch when you are fallen,

You need the love....
But will you give love to the someone...
Someone who cares
Who love you???

For someone who think that someone love you more than you love someone is better,
Dun hurt the someone who love you,
Love the someone,
Someone who love you....

Love is simple..... search it clearly and you know.

carving itself again at 9:16 AM

Monday, June 06, 2005

Where is the Love??? U left me all alone....

Where is the fairy Tale that i dream off?

Daydream, Nightdream,
Just hopping dream come true,
Dayworking, Nightworking,
Just Hopping Pay be better,
Daysearching, Nightsearching,
Just hopping to see you again
Daycaring, Nightcaring,
Just hopping you will love me.....some days.....

This month pay... eat grass lo, never hit sale record... die lo... eat wind also.. haiz~~~~ work are getting stressful... not easy.. anyway, i been promote from sale execuite to senior sale execuite.... so wat.. pay is still the same... my boss told me that i have 3 months probation, see whether i could cope and manage a shop... wanted to promote me to sale manager..... stress lo... not easy at all.. the most for me .. just let me be a ass manager i dun wan so fast be a manager... i can`t cope it lo... some customer i can`t handle well, only my current sale manager can do it well.... althought some time he bur bur one... but he is a nice guy...

Some strong force, Want me to work hard.... save some money... starting business with some friends, any business.. earn money... sometime u working in a business is fun...with helps of some friends... i know is not easy... but won`t give up without a try.. just need some friends with same thinking with me..... just need some really close and great friends... give me time and money... i will start it...... althought i inexpirence...

I think the force came from my company, cos i see a very small company become huge... althought is a black shop... haiz~~~ no choice... business is like that , hmm

Friends.... boon keong, ge xiong, jian yu must take good care at army... anyway wan to tell u a very important things... I ORD loh.... haha 2 yrs very fast... take good care..

carving itself again at 7:48 AM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Love her....or...... not

FoR SoMeOne Who LoVing... CaRInG.... WaitInG..... FoR hER

To Him,

We were great buddies,
Tell us.... what u can`t tell us,
Let us know ur inside your heart,
Althought we know her.....

I Should know...
Should know earlier,
Since that day u are drunk,
And u think of her......

Why u likes her,
Is it what u want???
No i think...
Or u just too lonely???
Dun let loneliness led u bindly...

Anyway, i also dun know wat the hell she wan....
She is not strong enough... She can`t stand up on herself...
So she let him led her life.....
To somewhere she can`t turn back...
WAKE UP MY FRIEND>>>>>
DUN LET HIM RUIN U>>>>>
YOU ARE A GREAT GAL, U FIND SOMEONE>>>>
BETTER AND TRUTHY LOVE U>>>
WAKE UP...

anyway... if she can`t stand up on her own... No one can`t help... she is on her own....
If we can help.... this problem is solve long ago, it won`t drag until now... that she is still dropping tear. silly girl, wasting her tears for someone who dun worth it, when i die, then u cry is worth althought i am a bad guy.. Everythings is in your hand.... Only on your own....

OIE , u also... WAKE UP... sure u really like her??? LET ME KNOW....

carving itself again at 7:33 AM