carving itself again at 9:04 PM
carving itself again at 11:45 PM
carving itself again at 6:34 AM
carving itself again at 5:12 AM
carving itself again at 2:00 AM
carving itself again at 9:41 PM
carving itself again at 6:14 AM
carving itself again at 1:13 AM
But, so long never contract liao..... not going to have the fun we used have... not going to be great friends like we used... dun know why.. is it me?? too busy??? Cos, we got wat we wans to do... got our own friends... got own life....
This 8,9,10 april, is edwin`s birthday chalet... Must go... cos really long time never meet up lo... althought dun have the feeling we all used have... know each other thinking... but there is still care and conern.. hope so...
FrIeNdS FoReVEr
BOon... 22 lo... must think lo.. anyway.. all the best.. find a great gal... and get marry soon.. i wan to eat shark fin soup.. and hope to eat red egg soon after the shark fin.... haha
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Life is full of ups and downs....
This tile is jacp msn name.. find that quite meaningful... yup.. life is like that....
Ord lo.... so sian.. NOW, i really step out of everthing... now is getting a career, have family... and so and so.... SIAN.. no more study?? i still used to the life.. of being control, follow the routine.. follow everyone should do... study primary sch at the age of 6 to 12, sec sch 13 to 17, shatec 18 to 19... then NS 19 to 21... so used to do wat they give.. like ns... got detail, i will do , no detail, sack at mtl... so great.. u dun have to make any decison.. just follow... so easy life...
Now... haha.. no choice.. u have nothing to do... there is no more study, no more ns... No routine to follow.. u follow ur own path.. wat path u wan ?? earn money?? or do wat u really wans?? to be truth... i not good at cooking.. i forget everything when i serve my ns.. i dun know how to cook a lot a lot of things... i lousy...
Now... likes to do a lot of things.. wans to know everything... life is too short to give u time to learn, i need more times.. i lazy , so take times... i wan to learn, do, everthings... God or who has the power... GIVE ME MORE TIME... time to love, time to learn.... but .. life is still quite boring... without any..... hmmmm dun know how to say..
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My love is there.................
Yours???
U told most of the pple...
U like me....
Its true???
Or all just a wrong feeling toward me,
Its true,
U never liked me,
Its just wrong feeling,
But u make me like u,
Its true,
I grow feeling for you....
hmmm.... write all these, i think i can go be a writer... so touching... haha... too bad my english not good, if not, i really can write more feeling more touching, wait u all cry... haha
Haiz~~
Still remember where we meet, when we went out... u told me u like me.... why i can`t feel it at all..
Heard from pple u like me...At first, i have no feeling at all, no crush... But after i came back from NZ.... After a few monemts of together... at thiam house, valentine day, UK funfair.. i told myself, control my feeling for u... but can`t, i grow feeling toward u... hopping to get together, like others.. happy together... but never...
U like me??? i been think that since, before and after our relationship, i too foolish or wat... i thought girls should think like tat.. not guys?? i am a love idiot....
It is SO PAINFUL... to see jacp and yao together.. SO ENVY them... they start their relationship around ours too... Why we end up so soon.... really very pain, see my friends, all have their love... i really so SAD... wondering wny we can`t be like them....... Drop some tears.... not for u... just for others..
Been wondering, Did i do something wrong??? God wan to make fun of me??Is it my previous life, i play a lot of others feeling, now i get it back?? 4 steads i had... all like that, should be my fault.... i not good enough...
Haiz~~~ still ok.. i feeling good, anyway i should used to me, myself and i , without any girlfriend.. for another 4yrs?? haha haiz~~~ i Fine....
These are the last for you... no more you in my blog.. not going to write all these.... starting my new life.....
just dun her to get hurt...
just let her forget me..
hear from someone she cried..
when she saw my blog url dun wan her to cry again,
dun wan her to be hurt...
decide to change my blog url,
because of her....
So sorry.. i did not wan her to cry....
just wan her to be happy...
So stop reading my heart...
Forget me....
i will try to forget u too,
Left some feeling behind,
Not i forget to take it back,
It is so hard to take it back,
i so wish you have ur blog,
So wish to know your heart,
is there still feeling left on me???
i will try forget you again..
Somehow, somedays, somemonth,
i think of u again...
hope u dun.... because it hurt when i think of u...
i dun u to be hurt..
find a great bf.... i will miss u again..
need my help call me,
i will be there,
Take good care,
Study hard,
make your dreams come true,
And
GOOD BYE!!!
somehow i thought i forget her liao.... but... haiz~~~ there are still feeling that.... such feeling..
to like her... but somehow... is going to be lost.. hope to bring it back... still wants to know how is she.... hope she is doing well.... haha
hope she can find a great guy.....
times will heal.... times will let me forget her smile... forget wat we miss out... forget wat we done......
wondering... where is my angel??? the one who will help me when i was down... i really need you.... i need your love.... your care......
i edit some things on some entry... i never wanted to hurt someone..
Sometime, wonder where is the love??? could someone tells me??? if there is love... we won`t let go so easy... haiz~~~~ these days, love are so easy break... can`t love like tv programme??? where love is true.. die also must be together...if is true that only love can show on tv.... i rather live in the tv... where u can enjoy u and her together happily.. or i too stupid to believe that???
Now at irene house with boon... irene la, must thaks boon... he never sleep for days.. for ur things.. haha
tired tired. been working... so sleepy... wan to sleep...... no time to update my blog....... next time!!!
Haiz~~ these days.. been thinking... been wondering..... somehow i will find an answer myself...
I will try to stand up no matter what is the ending, just let me fall in love again..
Haha, these day i realise i still got some friends... some great friends i have, some best friends when i needs them...
Some friends... Lip sin and boon(ktv, sing out the feeling!!!!) Li ei(thanks for encourage me, i thought u forget me liao) Shan xiong and gei xiong(saw my blog and ask me out, thks ) Li fang(can tell u wat i feel) bao xing(tell wat to do) irene( accompany me for dinner), steve( thanks for coming late night to hear my words) queenie(keep on reading my blog and a lot other friends...... so many friends... if i still feeling down, make my life sad, i will let u all down... hahaha so i will be happy... Life still goes on and on.. thanks!!!!!!!!!
somemore someone adrime me... haha lip sin`s niece.. cynthia likes me.. hahaha she only 5 yrs old... joking la~~~ tke care~~~
@ nightime
He is now in a KTV room with his friends,
He knows today he will have answer,
An answer he does not really wants or know,
But an answer must be known today,
He wanted to meet her to have a talk,
But she did not want it, she just want a chat on the phone,
She said she have something to said to him.
Somehow he knows what she want to said.
He went and search a quiet place,
He sat on the staircase, take out his 6100 out,
He thought for a while, before he handles her question,
He called, he and she chat for a while,
He knows both of them need the answer,
He ask "what you want to say???"
She reply " dun know how to say leh"
Both of them kept quiet for a while,
He ask "is it we are not look like we are together???"
She reply "yes...."
Both of them agree.
They chat for a while again cos they may not chat on the phone again.
Put down his phone, sat on the staircase.
Tears almost won him, but he told himself,
You may see him drink, sad, unhappy, laughing, kee siao,
But you will never see his tears dropping,
He went back to the KTV room,
And he smile and said to his friends " i break liao"
His friends never said much thing,
Just want him to sing,
He sing the song(Song on this blog)
Now he know why singing can relieve some pain,
Because you can sing out your feeling,
But somehow just like beer, you can forget it for some while.
After KTV session,
He went home,
As he walks home,
He wonder why it ends up like that,
Is it he never put in effort??
or he is too serious??
He can`t feel the love she wanted to give, or she never??
He asked her a question, a question which is very important,
Her answer that can make he be stronger,
Answer that he can hold on to the relationship,
Answer that he can put in more,
But the answer is DUN KNOW
Two words that really hurts him a lot.....
He didn`t wan to think more about it,
The more he think the more pain he going to have...
The next day morning ,
He wake up with a dream, is her again,
He never thought much of it,
He went for jogging,
He runs, not because he can run away from all this,
It just makes him feel better, but he really wan to forget it,
Swear away some pain, he hopes.....
Just Him
For the 1st girlfriend he had,
The 1st day he and she together,
He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish.
"i wish she is the 1st and the last girlfriend i going have,
Let us be happy"
The god gave him the answer after 2 days.
For the 2nd girlfriend he had,
The 2nd day he and she together,
He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish,
"i wish she is the 2nd and the last girlfriend i going to have,
Let us be loving"
The god gave him the answer after 13 days.
For 3rd girlfriend he had,
The 3rd day he and she together,
"He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish,
"i wish she is the 3rd and the last girlfriend i going to have,
Let us be joyful"
The god gave him the answer after 15 days.
For 4th girlfriend he had,
The 4th day he and she together,
He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish,
"i wish she is the 4th and the last girlfriend i going to have,
Let us be truthful"
The god gave him the answer after 17 days.
For the 5th girlfriend he going to have,
He pray to the god, really hope god grand his wish,
"i wish you could take away my feeling called love,
Let me be a no feeling guy, just dun wan to be hurt again"
The god give him the answer.....
HiS HeArt Is BrOkEN...
Him to all girls,
If you dun really likes him....
PLs dun be together with him....
He just like any other guys out there,
who need love too...
if u can`t give him that..
pls igrone him.
He just dun wan to be hurt again…..
He never blame her at all...............................
Is just love...
whatever.
Name:
Raynor Ong Wei Qiang
Gender:
Male
Zodiac:
Capricon
Birthday:
03 Jan 84
Location: Singaporemy past.not urs
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