Born to Dream

2007-11-15T20:52:00.000-08:00

After so long. Suddenly have feeling to make blog alive again. No more dead blog on this moment... So many to say.

Life is full of ups and downs.

My mum's birthday is over. Accompany her to have dinner, and a small gift (casio watch).
Later celebrate lip sin's bd at helo bar. His present have a casio watch , 3t- shirt. Got one size is M. Hope he can wear in the future. Haha. Have a lot fun at helo bar expect until lip sin was drunk... He drunk... And said everything that suppose be kept his heart secretly... Haiz... Expose my secret too. Ok. Actually he say was quite true... Say a lot on my frlends. Xrong, boon, jeff.... I really dun like his bd wish. What he and she be together... Come on bro. I know what to do. Make your wish worth.. For yourself.. I will not be happy if your wish is for me lo. Save yourself first la... As for the girl you like. Hmm. Just like you told me to forget li er like tat. Same forget jun... Be Friends only lo. People dun appreciate you. Other would.... I understand this.. So be man. Be career mind person... .be good man need 3 goods. A good son, a good husband, a good father.... Not that easy ....
Be a good man. Face problem not escape..
Be a good man. Not easily to lose...
So dun die for a girl. Die for a girl that worth and you love...

Oh right. Know it and do it is different things.. Easy to say, hard to do. I aiming to do it. Cos you know la. My father is not a man that worth for me to call him father.. I dun wan to be like him. I have be very strong.... Strong enough to show father's side family that I could do it. I could success even through they look down on my mum. Fuck them!

So lip sin... Your problem is not tat big. You still have lots lots of its coming... Face it.. Seems she dun like you. You could be success.

Back

2007-05-21T09:19:00.000-07:00

New updates on kitchensdaries!!!
Cheese cake recepie!!!

ha!!! back from genting trip with my mum... i like the temp there.. so cooling.. unlike sg so so hot... drying.. went genting was like.... gamble and gamble.. my mum and i was like staying at the casio for the whole day.. end up i was losing.... haiz~~~ play play can la... dun addicted...

very tired... working life is back...

2007-04-29T08:51:00.000-07:00

在我们要离别的时侯，你对着我好象没有悲哀的笑。也不知道为什么、我也对著你也笑ｏ
我的心里都藏了很多话，都想让你知道，却又说不出口ｏ
好想听你说，Please don't go. I miss you so, don't leave me along.

I miss you too...

I gonna to leave, and you just stood there, doing nothing. Am I important to you. I think I not... So sad. Who knows.. Let me tell you again

I love you, I miss you so. Please do not leave me alone.

我会–去不回，你却不留着我，我会很伤心，但是我会对着你微笑的走过去。
好想听你说，Please don't go, I miss you so. Don't leave me alone.

男人流汩，比流洫还要病，比女人流汩还要伤心ｏ

Hi. i back

2007-04-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

On this special day,
I ask my gal,
To take a walk,
On this beautiful beach,
With this beautiful sky with shining star.

On this special night,
I ask my gal,
To make a promise,
Not to leave me alone again,
On this lonely world,

On this special moment,
I ask my gal,
To be my valentine,
With my fullest love and protection,
And never make her drop a tear.

Happy new year.. Yeah! Is a boar year.. So I wish everyone everyday happy happy:. Haha.... I like this festival... So much fun... Can eat, can drink, can get hao bao, can play, can gamble, can laugh loud, can jokes, can do a lot of things:. Who will not like these days:.

Beers every after work. Shoik.. My belly coming out liao.. Haha.. This chinese new year never visit any relative at all ... Cos of family problems .. But have lot of funs with my buddies and friends...

Times really files...

.
老天正在卞雨, 我就在那里,
听那一点一点的雨滴
好象我的眼汩,
一滴一滴地落下。
我到地在等什么,

我一直都在, 在那里等著你。
然到你不知我的心情吗?

好想对你说, 我喜欢你。
好想抓住你的手倍我去看星星。
好想听你说，你也爱我。

有时你对我热，有时冷。
让我有喜有汩，不知道是好还不好。
是不是我想太多，把你想了太简单。

This Suppose to post last month...

I like bress one of my sgt in my bmt. He finally get a rest in peace. He has fallen last month: went to his funeral last month:meet all bmt buddies ..: really long time never saw them for a long time liao... Miss the fun during the old day:
For him,
He was a good man,
Take care his family well.

He was a good sgt,
Take care his soldiers.

He love his country,
Serve and do his part for this country.

He is gone,
But he is always in our heart....

I change

Sometime I been thinking am I planning rite for my future... Although I have changing a lot.. Only old friends knows.. When I was young.. I was innocent and native.. Everything was easy.. Playful and I was very easy bully by people.. Till now.. I know a bit of how the world is run.... You don't eat people, people will eat you,. That the cruelty of life.. I understand . You have to be very strong .. World is selfish ... Everyone is selfish .... To live this world.. You have to count yourself .. Count in your luck too.. Because it helps.. Anyway life is like gambling .. Chose the wrong way.. You may end losing everything. But most important.. Is count on
yourself...

I am 23 this year: I felt have not growth up at all.. Still like a kid. Behave like one.. Look like one.. I know some people say guy become mature at 30.. Maybe: but to me : I am what I am: who care whether I mature anot..

27/03/07(sunny)
Happy birthday to bao xin.. Welcome to the 23rd group.
On sat
Celebrating bao xin bd
Surprise , my sec friends to come my workplace to eat..when I was quite busy at the moment .. Haha, jeffrey make a cheese cake for bao xin which quite similar with my workplace . Expect some chocolate chip on top..
I was told to bring the cake out. But can't .. Cos I am on duty: but just went there to sing a song. They waited for me till I finish my work. Then went marina for bowling.

Heeloo

2007-03-11T08:25:00.000-07:00

SO long.. sorry been busy... never update my blog for long time... actually soon update a long time on my pda phone, but never have chance to update only... haixz~~~~
i will update more next time!!

2007-02-05T04:35:00.000-08:00

The Endless road

You and me,
We walk a different path,
You are that person waiting for love,
I am that person waiting to love,
We just waiting for each of us,
Without knowing.

Fate let us met,
Loves brought us together,
We are walking on the same path,
I am the person you waiting for love,
You are the person I waiting to love,
We have waited this long.

Let us walk this endless road,
Just you and me,
Cross the greatest rivers,
Climb the highest mountains,

Hmm.. Everything seems so so.. Working at new place seems to be good.. Long working hours that I used to it.. Burns & cuts .. that are appearing.. Is nothing to me again.. I need more motivation... More.. I been hardworking, I wan to be more.. More strong.. More knowledge....

2007-01-17T03:01:00.000-08:00

Bring me to a no love songs world,
I pray,
Let me forget what is love,
painful and lonely.

Give me a strongly beer,
I ask,
Make me forever drunk,
Forget you forever and ever.

Leave me alone in the empty street,
I wanted,
Left me there with the light,
Know the meaning of lonely.

Phew... I manage to understand some japan laugange I learned from the new work place.. First day working was not bad.. The staff there were very friendly. I was station at rice and noodle. Cooking japanese rice and noodle like soba. Wudo...etc.. Fun. Is like a new start out... A fresh start out for me... PASSION IN ME!

But is spilt shift.. 1030 to 1430 then 1730 ts 2230. In the rest time . Maybe I should spend time study...

Last sat.
Celebrate li fang bd..
Yeah. Welcome to the 23 years group.
At cinelesurie k box..
Got shan xiong, ge xiong ,wee hiong, jeffrey , lionel, bao xin,si mei pammie, li fang and her bf ah feng.
And one surprise friend. Jian yu.. Who suppose to be in brunei.. Ya really.. We can't spell fu*k without you.. Haha.. Anyway.. Really surprise you came.. Miss you.. .was fun all the way. Watch blood diamond at midnight meeting beiwen.. Nice show. Girls should watch it.. Dun ask why.. You all should knew it after you watched.

Sunday.. Meet lip sin, wee yong, jeffrey , xing rong and his wife. Suppose to rollerblade in east coast..but is raining ... So end up at queenway shopping. Everyone trying to get what they wan.. And I got a new shoe.. Very nice... Cost $53. Levis shoe.. Yeah happy!. Went buy risk(boardgame). Play at xin rong house till wee yong need to book in... Fun..

Loving, loving, loving

2007-01-06T19:54:00.000-08:00

Hoooo......
I hate my bro...

This afternoon I went to posb atm to desposit money. My mind told me I have 550... Then place my money on the machine.... It show me only 450... I was shocked.. Where is my another 100?... ....

My suspect is stolen.. Or possible posb taken my money
I think should be my bro taken my money... He now jobless.. Should be no money.. And sneak to my room and search my wallet for my money.. Very sad why I have such bro.. This is not the first time.. Somehow my money kept losing at home... I just have not caught him in red handed..
Now I am in need of money..and he took my money.. Fu*k...

Life so unexpected ...
Somehow I been worried my future..
How am I going survive ... How much I going make to support my family.. Would I get a good wife? Could I save enough money for my children's studies.. I wan my children have good education.. How many children should I have? One child need hundred k to send him or her to university ... 2 means 2 hundred k.. How to save? And when to save enough for retirement ?

So many future Q.... I actually those walk one day see one day kind of person..
But no choice.. I should plan my future... But how.... Haha...
What can I say..
Life is unexpected .....

Watch this DVD show called Actually love.. I brought this DVD few years ago.. But never watch this movie... Very nice movie... Should watch before christmas ... Make people ln love...

I'm loving, loving with you,
Just like you tiao,
In love with dou jiang
Like romeo and juliet,
Love making them silly but honour.
Can't you feel it.

I'm waiting, waiting for you,
Just like the dessert,
Waiting for the rain.
Like the flower seed,
Waiting for spring.
Can't you hear it.

I'm missing, missing you,
Just like the sun,
Hoping to see the moon everyday.
Like the trees,
Can't bear to drop their leaves.
Can't you see it.

I loving, loving you....

First blog of 2007

2007-01-03T02:57:00.000-08:00

2007 lo.. And I am going to be
23. Years passed... So fast and so quick.. Before I could realize. My new year bring me another challenge .. Learning jap cusine.. And studies. I have handle it.....

Set some goals.... 2007 goals

1) earn 2k a month..(so far can get 1.6k)

2) My exam results for the rest of the term get grade B and above

3)Go diving....(since 2005)

4)get class 2, 4 & 5 driving license

5)hope to kiss someone!

6)Take part in the star chef..by sam leong

7)have 10k in my account( impossible )

8)be someone.

On 30\12\06, after work. Went home rest. And going out for dinner with Xing rong and his wife at choa chu kang. Later go fetch lip sin. Boon keong on duty.. We yong at jb. Jeff working. ..we stay at xing rong for a while.. Suddenly ... His wife brought out a cake with candles of happy birthday . I was so... Hmm... Shock.... and Thanks .... I still remember not every birthday I will have birthday cake.... Really thanks to my friends....

After cutting cake and each of us have a piece.. We went out and meet we yong for a few pool games.then we meet keo boon at a no one rail station to talk cork and watch the star....till we are tired .
.
On 31/12/06, afternoon.lip sin , boon keong. Help xin rong go collect waste paper.. Then work straight.

Is countdown day.... But have to work till 11 plus.. Sian. Going out xing rong they all...

And 5,4,3,2,1.... Bom. Bom. Bom......
Happy new year!
Every car using horn...
I was at ECP near the marina... Road were jam.. Everyone stop at express way just to look fireworks.... Was my first time looking fire work at the road with my bike and my friends in the car..... Happy!

On 1/1/07..
After work, went home rest, meet friends to celebrate shan xiong birthday at buay key, a pub name rab pub... A relaxing pub.. Open 2 chivas... Drink like hell.. The pub owner give our birthday boy a special drink called .... Poison , mix more than ten spirits... One drink make him vomit the whole night.... Anyway.. Is was fun.. Happy birthday 23 . Bro! May your wish come true.

On 2/1/07,
Our 10th years anniversary friendship... We went to zoo.... To have a school outing like we use to have.... After went ktv session with bao xing, jeffrey and ge xiong .. And I was surprise...a cake with 2 big candles and 3 small ones came in and happy birthday song.. I really dun expected ...cos I thought my bd celebration is over.. Anyway really thanks... Thank you friends..
Happy 10th years friendship . Hope our friendship never dies...

2006-12-27T08:17:00.000-08:00

So many things happened to me... All the bad things.

So stress...

My mum kept asking for home expenses ... Which I have not given for a few months ago.. Cos my unexpected expenses is very high.. Oct my bike's insurance and road tax cost around 500.. My school fee is paid on nov. 800 bucks... New term comlng.. Buy new books. 100 bucks... Of course. I never blame her for not understand .. Is my duty to give her moneys.. I am so evy those who can spend their money freely without thinking much. Oh forget I dun have a good father or I did not have a father at all.. Better say I have a dread father. So no choice.. My mum suffer a lot because of him... Now cos of me...

I still remember I give home expenses when I was 18. When my pay is only 500. I still can give a 100 to my mum.. Now haiz.. Own expenses increase... I so wish I could earn a lot. Take over the house key, the loan, the bill. So my mum will enjoy her life..

Few days ago. Received a letter about loan of my last time bike.. Sue me for not paying them of balance 300: now 300 turn over to 1000plus.. Why? You may ask me why I dun pay the left over .. . Hmm... In future dun listen to your friend advice on loan.. Listen to pro...

Today I have to go down there to talk to them about this issue... See them willing to bring down the price. This cb fu*king #%$! Credit bike shop.. Learn a lot of money from me.. Ok . This really give me a good lesson.. Of blame myself of buying a bike without thinking much.. If can . Never take a loan...

Received tp letter. Say I speeding.. Lucky is a warning letter

Going to quit my current job at vivo city. Going a jap resturant which offer less than what I have now.. But I still wan to learn more instead of earn more... Got one rest which I work part time.. Offer me $1600 which is higher than what I get now.. But too bad .. Not interested..

Lost 50 bucks that jeff return to me

Soon... I suffer depression ....

My test just around the corner .... Where got heart to study now...
But still have study.

The world is fact...

2006-12-22T06:09:00.001-08:00

This lonely lonely christmas,
I walk alone in the empty street,
Alone and lonely,
With my broken dream.

This black black christmas,
I sit on this black chair in the empty pub,
Dark and black,
With my scars around...

2006-12-22T06:09:00.000-08:00

year end

2006-12-20T07:58:00.000-08:00

Christmas coming...
Year ending...
Soon 2007..
Becoming 23...
.Hmm.. My goals that have set.. Not yet complete.... So much to do. Golng to set a new goal again...

So many award giving around these days. Like the mediacorp.
I also have some awards of the year to give to my friends ..

Awards of the year..

Never been in time....
Latest late award= Lip Sin

Best man Never angrily ...
Best soft award= Boon Keong
And also meet never turn up....
Areoplane king award= Boon Keong

The ever caring and nevertheless met..
Best far caring award= Irene Neo

New and greatest friends ....
Best new friends award= Daphne & Pammie

The never stop openness mouth
Best talk non stop award = Pammie

Regularly Night clubbers
Best Chiongester awards= Gei Xiong, Boon keong and Pammie

Regularly Non clubbers
Best non chiongester awards= Li Fang, Sha Xiong and Lip Sin.

Beers Cheers!
Best drinker awards= Jeffrey and Ge Xiong

The man of Year cos of Wedding
Wedding man award= Xing Rong

The Lady of Year cos of Wedding
Wedding Lady award= Lanise

Pick up a wallet and returned ..
Best truthful award= Jeffrey

Never give him your secrets...
Best big mouth award= Lip Sin

Cook is his name....
Best cook award=Shurbi

Always good to hear any problems
Best good ears award= Li Fang

She is a monkey.. Naugthly girl
Best monkey king award= Li Er

You see.. There is two moon in sg
Best ez trick and ez bluff awards= Li Fang and Pammie

He is tough and lonely ....
Best tough and lonely award=Jian Yu

Never say die...
Best Strongly award= Li Er

The best of best buddies .. Tml never die
Best buddies awards= Lip Sin, Boon Keong ,Xing rong and jeffrey .
Best sisters awards=Li Fang, Beiwen and Li Er

Best movie...

MI3

day by day

2006-12-09T08:34:00.000-08:00

Today is 02/12/06.
Haiz golng partick wedding then hui wen blrthday an 03/12/06

Been spending a lot of money...
Must save money liao. But I am those people who spend a lot ... Dun know spend to where also.....drinking , makan...etc:.

Going fishing on 15,16,17dec...
Venue:North east malaysia kelong
Time:7am Fri to 7am Sun
Catch types:baracuda, sea bass, Gouropa, Red murrel and many more
Fisherman: Eugene and 2 friends , Ken and 6 friends .... And me.

My first oversea fishing trip this year..last year with eugene and his bro to tanchon pinung Yeah!
Love fishing since l am small.:.

Can't wait to go:.
~~~~~
Haiz:..... This sunday got another friend rom.. That is .Melvin.. He is around 28.. Should get married liao.. Hmm all the best.. Happy all best...

I wan to end my feeling on bgr..

Be a loner is good....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Call kai luen and congratulations her ... She got her rom last few weeks... Haha.
Anyway she my 1st gf.... Long time ago... When we are only sec 2... Hmmm. We are very young at that time.. Everynight we will chat all night long.. Until one day l tell her l like her.. Everything went smoothly .. And .she becoming my gf.. Haiz to said... Only for two days. Why? She said. We are too young.... And we broke off.. I even never have chance to hold her hand.. That my first love... Gone without any mermories...

My fishing trip cancel soon.. Why!....

Later I meeting friends for project at midnight ... Cos all my friends are busy with work. Now must work hard....

its me!

2006-11-25T22:17:00.000-08:00

About Iraq

Area:438,517sq km

Borders Iran, Jordan, Kuwait, Saudi Arabia,Syria and Turkey

Natural resources : Petroleum, natural gas, phosphates, sulphur.

Population : 26.5million

Population growth rate:2.66%

Ethnic groups: Arabs 75%, Kurds 15-20%, Turkomans, Assyrians or other 5%

2867 us troops killed since March 2003

Today I was reading straits times about Iraq bloody mess..
Terror attack again. Bomb explode again. People dead again.

Haiz sad. Stay in sg so good life. No war no bomb. Yeah so peaceful.

Ok really long time never really updates my life. So much too write ...long long blog..

Talk about my career. Somehow I lost my passion. My cooking passion... Where is the guy who always visit library to see new ideas and recpie. Always keen to learn. Always hardworking??? I lost myself.. Been very sack after working at vivo city. .......
Where is my passion?
The flames that burn in my heart....

Wake up pig!

My dream-always!
Set up a big restaurant ... A place where people can taste greatest food...

My studies
Another bad bad me... My exam results coming soon... I think I never did well.. I must study hard on the rest of the subject ... Work hard!!!

My love...
Hmmm.... Haiz so sad. No love at all... Anyway is good. At this moment, I should not have any relationship... I still have to study and work. Where got time. Even I have someone in mind. I think I should hold my feeling ... Maybe fate will lead my way. So no hurry ...

Been watching Korean drama, watch this drama called My lovely sam soon... Haha haha ... Funny man..... Anyway
I still got lots of korean drama cos my mum now siao on korean drama..

2006-11-24T22:30:00.000-08:00

so tired . everyday work like hell.

bring a new pda phone .very nice to use. can store my homework and my recipes. food costs . now still can updates my blog wireless . so great. but exp!

Now still have to go to work..... sian'.:.::

Haiz~~ Surfing net at library le

2006-11-15T20:21:00.000-08:00

Now currently at Jurong library.. clearing dust on my blog.. so long never update/..cos no internet at home.. hmmm now working at VIVO city.. the biggest mall they claim.. to me... hmmm not really.. nothing much, maybe i did no go walk walk..

Vivo city level b2.. Green house cafe.. a small small cafe.. nothing much.. some s/w or pasta.. easy la.>!! menu been create by my team and me.. easy menus cos of easy kitchen.. the kit damm small.. the boss wan this wan that.. u think i superman... the kit is too limited.. pple call my kit a class 2 kit cos of limited equipment.. no fire on the stove using elecrtire one.. hazi~~~ now my boss wan me to plan christmas menus... anyway i go hotel work, i just a cook 2 only.. not a chef... n

Now at library looking for receipe.....

NOw our school fall no MOn and wed..!! yeh!!

Someone get married...

2006-10-03T02:38:00.000-07:00

Xing Rong and Lanis`s Big Day...

is 5 plus, wake up early.. so tired.. get bath and change to all black.. cause of the big guy wanted to..

Get car keys ready.. look good.. and drive Bmw!! yeah!! it is a great car!!!

Drive to lip sin house, meet all the brothers at 620.. still dark out there... and we reach at xin rong house at 7am... afetch our big day guy.. send to his bride where she must be waiting inpatiently...
haiz!~~ his big day

Groom`s 5 series wedding car!! power!!

Groom !! haiz!!!!

Groom Kana bully... not just the groom.. we also.. haiz~~ wat wasabi bread.. who`s idea,<~~

Let us in!!!

all sis wear white le!!! and the bride!!

Cute?? she called BB!! Lanis`s Newphe!

Groom and bride..!!!

Groom and me at wedding dinner and the dinner ends~~~~

the whole day is very very tired.. morning till late night,, TIRED~~~~

haiz who is next??

My heart is soft.

2006-09-21T03:00:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. sometime i think i a softhearted.. haiz~~~
Now currently out of job again... due to some reason.
Looking for a full time job now..
Now work part time at Rochester park.. a pub + resturant...
Nice place for hang out.. very cosy pub!!

HiaX~~ dun know wat to write!!!

If one day,
I fall in love with you,
Would you be mine,
Would you let me hold your hand,

Would you touch my lip,
Would you dance with me,

If one day,
I could n't see you again..
I will cry....

I win!!!

2006-08-14T07:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday have a competition with my friend jun wei..

A fight on Pasta!!!

it was evening 8 pm.. suddenly, jun wei suggest a cooking competition... i was like hmmmm alright.. let fight.. i never have a competition with him before..
now is the chance..

10pm is the time we have to present our dish... i was thinking and thinking.. looking at the ingredient they had.. chicken, beef, carrots, cucumbers.... then saw a fine spageitte.. hmmm thats it. i going to use.. cook?? ailo oilo?? tomato sauce? cream?? hmmm i think seriously... then my mind told to create a new pasta!! can`t use wat i done before...

is 830pm, still thinking and no answer.. jun wei knows wat to do alrealy... hmmmmm i can`t lose to him... then saw a pot oil there.. !!!!! yes i know!! i put a pot doing a special sauce.. call red wine asian sauce, onion, carrot, red wine, hoisi sauce...

then cook my pasta... make dry.. and mould it..... then deepfry it... and taste it Nice!!

then i reasile i need a meat item to compet it... i found prawns!! yes,, do skewer with it... prawns then sun dried tomato.. then prawn.... roll with my left over pasta.. and fried again...

10pm me and jun wei was like rushing all the way... throw pan, big fire... plating everythin... our judge is the bartener... here he comes.... and taste our food..
he taste mine and never said anything... then jun wei ....
his dish called pasta with 2 sauce.. mine golden pasta with asian sauce!!!

and...

and...

mine win!~!!

Golden pasta with asian sauce,
fried prawn skewer wrap with angel hair

Poor me

2006-08-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

Haiz~~ another week off.... mean i going get less pay...

How to surive... my bike insurance is coming,$400 plus... haiz~~

Guess have to find another extra job..

time is hard, because of chinese 7th month, too few functions, so i have to rest for a week,

i miscalculate my pay,too much things bike installment, fuel, hp bills, school fee, household, life insurance, expenses.. too many things for myself to handle.. .. make myself suffer.. a week off mean a week horror... i wan to work!!!!

Jian Yu going to brunei for six months.. so last wed, have a outing.. have dinner together... then beers!! at liquid kitchen..

Ah yu, all the best, take good care.. and ur goal is SAVE MONEY!! good luck!

School Start

2006-07-24T21:46:00.000-07:00

Yo.. back to blog! since my net is down, i have to update my blog on work!! haha
So a fast one..

Start school last week.. 2 lessons per week, Tue and thur,
Recive project on 1st day school..
Start school on at the school.. ???
Haha, this first module start at a hotel not at MIS
Hotel is Internation hotel located at Qrange glove road..

So many things to write.. but no time... see ya!!!

GOall!! haiz~~ so tired~

2006-06-19T05:02:00.000-07:00

manage to surive with 4 hours of sleep these 3 days~~ i so Zzzz..

watching WC everyday.. expect today..

Wat i done!

Last week,
Date:13/06/06
Venue:Tanam Jurong Mac
With: Jack(kap)
Match:Korea vs Togo(2-1), France vs Switzerland(0-0),Brazil Vs Croatio(1-0)
Bet:Korea Wins!,total goal 2 for F vs S, total goal 6,7,8 B vs C
Wins $6.50

Date:14/06/06
Venue:Tanam Jurong
With: jack(kap)
Match: Spain vs UK(4-0),Tuisia vs Suadi Arabra(2-2), Germany vs Poland(1-0)
Bets Draw S vs Uk total goal 2
Lose: $30

Date:15/06/06
Venue: Bukit Gomba coffe shop
With: Kai nam, Jeremy, Edwin, Vincent, V`s friend, Kai lun and J`s friend(kap)
Match: Ecuador vs Costra rica(3-0), England vs Trinidad & Tobago(2-0), Sweden vs Paraguay(1-0)
Bets:E vs T&T total score 3-0,4-0,5-0.
Lose: $30

Date 16/06/06
Venue: West coast, some resturant
With: Cute and Bad Pamela
Match:Argentina vs Serb & Montenegro(6-0)Best!, Holland vs Ivory Coast(2-1),
Mexico vs Angola(0-0)
Bets:A vs S&M H-H
win:$22

DNW(Did not watch)
Date: 17/06/06
Venue:Pongo(Fishing)
With: Xin rong , his wife and his 2 friends
Match:Portugal vs Iran(2-0), Czech Republic vs Ghana(0-2), Italy vs USA(1-1)
Bets: P vs I score, 3-0, 4-0, 5-0 C vs G Total goals 3
Lose: $50

Dat:18/06/06
Venue:Bukit Gomba coffee shop
With: Kai nam, jeremy and J`s friend
Match: Japan vs Croatia(0-0), Brazil vs Australia(2-0), France vs Korea(1-1)
Bets: all, HT-FT A-H,H-A and Australia 1 and 1half goal
Lose: $50

H~~~ tired, actually never really go watch everymatch, i wish i could!!
Total i lose $170!!
Haiz~~ never gamble!!
go ZZZzz

I had a Fever!!

2006-06-13T11:35:00.000-07:00

Hmmm... long time no bloggin cause of this

Final Fastasy VIII

Love RPG games.. my favourite all time.. cause of the adv and story!!

played ff7 before.. like to play again, after i complete 8,,

That is Ole ole ole~~~
World Cup Fever!!! yeah!!!
just finish watching two match!!
Korea vs TOGO
2:1

France vs Swtiland
0:0

Later

Brazil vs croatia

The France was boring!!

love the korea match!!
Korean Rulz!!

Time to get married??

2006-06-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. yum yum! having lycee.. sweet and juicy!
This week been cooking dinner for myself cos of left over from united dinner,
salmon, beef, celery, lots of carrots....

Day 1..
bake Salmon with mix vegatables rice(steam type)

Day 2..
Seared beef ball with mix vegetable
white rice

Day 3
OT at work

Day 4(today)..
Stir-fry beef with mix vegetable
white rice

note mix veg= carrots + celery + onino(thats all!!)

i full!!!

hmm, tml off.. plan to go swimming!! and go west mall return books.. then dun know where to go.. suppose to meet a friend go watch movie,, but she last min put airplane!! go GSS!! arararggg Great Singapore Sale.. where all the girls are crazy on it!! SHOP TILL THEY DROP!!! haiz!!

Now currently 22 yrs old! still young, playful and childish! haiz~~~
Is it the time to get married? last time when police wear shorts. guys like my age, are married! and have 2 kids by then! ME? still play there and here.. Dun know where to head!! haaahaa!

Married early is not a bad or good things!...
married early and start a family, give ur heart stable, u will be more mature, considerate to ur family, be a leader in ur family, u will know how important ur life to be...

Bad things!!
Not enough money to get married!(unless u are a rich guy) u have no great income, cos u are new and young! sometime u are too young, u dun really have the heart to take care ur family!

gettig married in 25!!! haha if can!! some of my friends like or getting married! like Xing Rong 23 and lanis 22 getting married!! Oct 06.. Ah tok 25 marry this june 06! Ge Xiong wants to get married at age of 23?? sure? haha i join u later! haha

A week work means a week tour

2006-05-26T11:02:00.000-07:00

Working at Angliss!

Learn somethings, make new friends.. haha

Met ah wan(malaysian) whole week with him, same as age as me.. cling very well cos...We like fishing !! haha

There was very cool... COLD!!! a big warehouse filled with bast chiller. Feezer.
i was working below 10 dregee!! wear 2 t-shirt.. still shriving!!

That`s me! must be clean

Mission cut this chunky meat into pieces (is Sirloin) a part of beef!

Ohh bloody!

Mission complete! so nice

Beef Ribeye Rib! big!!

See that.. so huge .. and is -17 dregee room!! that guy is ah wan

Will miss there.. hope can get another chance to work again!

Dream never comes true

2006-05-24T06:51:00.000-07:00

I walk alone,
and i sleep alone,
When i fall asleep,
I saw ur face in my dream.

Why did you appear in my lonely dream,
Where i used to walk alone in my empty street,
The one who walks with is just my shadow.

When i fall asleep,
Your smiles make my heart melt,
Your hugs make me warmth,
You are just everything i need in my dream,

Why did you bring loves in my dream,
Where darkness is everywhere,
Only streets lights give me lightness.

Why did you appear in my dreams
You make me fall in love...
Again

Dreams that never come true...
So wish it can be true..

Haiz~. why why, why did i dream of u again.. anyway is a weird dream,
but it give a lot of feeling for u.... i dream of going out with u, and make u wait for me for 45mins, and u did not angry. Dream u and me went to a beach, having fun there, and then came roddery(dun know why, cause dream)the first in my mind was.. are u ok? was very worried u get hurt, and fight with them..... so worried u get hurt..

Luckily is a dream.. haiz~ dream of her for 3 times since i know.. 3rd time this morning.. got feeling inside.. will forget asap.. cos we are only friends..

Some people we walk past or present or future, some are fate to be friends only.

Think that way i think i won`t be so sad. some friends are forever friends, so dun think too much la!~~ hope i dun dream her anymore.. so sad now,, almost make me fall in love with her....

Time to cook!

2006-05-20T07:22:00.001-07:00

Menu is offical out today.
Look at www.kitchensdiaries.blogspot.com

Somehow. thanks to the friends who came to support me and jeff..
Thanks!!! anyway i know $20 for a dinner is very $$$$ to us..
I hope i can make the dinner worth more wat u pay. I MEAN IT!!
will add more food inside!!!

Next week OFF whole week!

haha!! next week working a new place.. anyone heard of Angliss?
haha!! or Singapore food industria?? SAF FOOD ?? haha
actually beside the SPI. at pandan loop there.. near Pammie`s house.. hoho
Work as a Butcher!!! KIll ANY ANIMAL! SAUGTEHR THEM!! INTO PARTS AND PARTS. CUT THEIR LOIN USING SAW!!! AND WEIGTH THEM INTO 160G AND PUT THEM INTO SMALL SMALL BAG AND VACCUM THEM!! HAHA THEY DIE AND DIE AGAIN HAAHAHAHAHAHH!!!!
actually cut beef sirloin and stiploin!! parts of beef!!
Work there part time and perhour is $8!! nice!! but only a week only cos their full time injury.. (cut his finger... i mean his finger did drop on the floor.. when he slicing beef using saw) oowww PAIN! hmm and then i take a week off on 4 season!! love it! can work and work diff place. and learn and learn diff things!!

Saw this bike when having dinner with lipsin and xing rong!! CRB 600RR
That`s wat i call a bike!! my DREAM BIKE!!

Time to cook!

2006-05-20T07:22:00.000-07:00

School time!

2006-05-16T06:21:00.000-07:00

Monday went to mis pay 1012.20 sg dollars.. whew... money!!! haha
SO School start at 17 july!! got to save for the next seme.. that will be 3 months later after starting school..

Me Still wondering, can i cope it? will i fail?? my english like shit!.. hmmm but watever i try my best!!!

World Greatest Love Day!

2006-05-14T08:17:00.000-07:00

In this world,
She gives u the First love when u are born,
She Bring u to this world,
Never thought of bringing u harm,
Only with love,
With more or little help, she do her best to give you the best that she never had before,

She gives u Warmth, Love and Care everyday till her last breath
She work and work whole day just because of u,
She will still care for u even u agure with her that you are rite,
She will always nag and nag on you, but she just hope u do well.
She will treat u as a kid even u now are 25. cos u always a kid in her heart.
She is the one and only Mum!!!

Happy Mother`s day!

Only when u become like her, u will know u really can`t agure with her anymore.

Hmmm! bring my mum go sake sushi eat. and buy a koren drama vcd for my mum, oh, my mum really siao korean drama, imagine she now have 8 or 9 drama at home, and complete almost all... cos of the jewel of palace. haiz~

me and my mum at sakue!

Whole Night!

2006-05-11T21:27:00.000-07:00

Mos was!!!
not so bad

Mos
Great is +
bad is -

The area was Big +
A lot of theme to chose! +++
Girls there WOW~ +++
Interior design ++
Music +
Crowd there ---
Drinks there $$$ ----
seating all reserve -----

Haiz~~ overall is not so bad.. can go once a blue moon!
On 11/5/06
Meeting Daphne, Pam, Bao, Yu, Jeffrey and GX joins us too.
Suppose to go club mo mo!! but last last min they change to MOS and cos GX going there too.
reach around 10pm went in 10plus! was quite empty till 12.. the place was full of pple. the R & B Smovee rm was way too small.. so many pple there. how to have fun, was dancing half way. then pple push u, haiz~ can`t really enjoy, then the another area too big, so few pple around, they should change R & B on the another side.. haiz~~ stay inside for a while then went out with jeffrey to get some beers and food at 7-11, cos inside we can`t drink well $49 per jug! No no.. just order one jug only.. a few slips and is gone!! can calculate 100ml = $5!. haha! but at last i went the Mos!! where a lot pple talk about it!! i wan to go club mo mo!!!

one more things. i like talk about the girls, Pam, Dap, Bao, i really really envy u all... u all not tired one.. Imagine we went there 10plus, u start dancing from 11 till 4am!!!! that is 5 hours!! u all Power!! chiongser! after mos closed, u all still like to contiune!! wow no words to say! i think goverment can start girls NS campaign. because they are stronger then guys... only when they play!

the powerpuff girls! with me!

Project B!!! B for BIG!

2006-05-07T21:06:00.000-07:00

Haiz~~ been going gym since last 2 months.. i have not becoming Big size.. not even put on weight.. haiz~~ WHY!!! last fri just went to gym myself. cause they all not free. met lionel on the way.. so went and train with him...

Later going swimming myself again, very lonely.. but is good la.. u can concentrate on swimming!.

lost weight instead of gain weight.. lost 1kg... argarg,..

60.23kg lost 1kg.]

Goal is 65-70kg..
got to work hard!!

$Expenses$

2006-05-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

Got calculate my expenses!

Self-Organizer is important...

Pay is $1400
Bike + fuel + parking = $300
Home fee = $200
$400 = School fees
$100 = saving
$400 = Daily expenses

hmmm... money not enough le! need to earn more!

Thought buying a game console.. but thinking of the expenses and the time i use on playing..
maybe forget it.. but feel like pamper myself.. Really ages i never play any games!! no ps, ps2, X box! only pc !

Wan to buy DS lite!!! argagr

6/5/06 ( Election day )
Went to queenie`s birthday chalet with boon(xiao boon boon), this girl only 19! know her throught lip.. saw her once , now ask us to come down her chalet.. anyway all best to her... may her wishes come true
then meet xin rong, jeff, kia boon, lip sin at changi V! having supper.. talk till very late... till 3 plus then went home.. oh my god.. working after tat!!. tired

PAP PAP! SDA SDA! SDP SDP! WP! WP!.. shouting and CHeering!! HIGH!!!
Now 22.. time to put my mind on my home!! consider home affair!!
too bad can`t get to vote!!.. maybe another 5 years!!

My friend`s ROM!

2006-05-03T07:33:00.000-07:00

Wishing them the bestest wishes! Love is forever, Happiness always!

Today went to Xin rong and lanice ROM! never went to the rom building before. first time. saw the process too.. the VOW! will you willing to take she as your wife? YES! haha fun! see how they smiling throught out the vow, haha. happiness in their heart!!

After that went to mount farrer have dinner.. seeing their families chatting making jokes!...
take a lot of photo.. hope can post them here..

Their wedding will be on 1/10/06.. the groom wans me to be his ah mam driver on that day.. haha no good things for me.. of course must do la.. his big day!...

all the best!!

New blog, another me

2006-05-01T09:34:00.000-07:00

yo. create this blog long time as i started this blog. but never did any posting till today.. is www.mycookingdiaries.blogspot.com

going to make it big.. so lip sin must help..

going to write wat i learn and write in,, maybe every posting i try to write a recipe in!! haha

Been Long Long

2006-05-01T00:19:00.000-07:00

Hi!! i am back. been 2 months away. have not done any updates since my com is down!! spent $200plus to repair it haiz~~
So things to write, start from!!

WOrking!!!
Currently working at Four Season Hotel as a part time cook, cos they dun have any full place fpr me.. cos i came late for the interview.. sad? no cause i earn more just doing partime. $7.50per hour.. working 6days a week.. 8 to 4. but always work till 5 ot 6.. just like last week, work 9 to10pm for the whole week.. but lots of $$$ haha..

New Ride!
Got a bike Faclon NX400!! actually the style is bad/ very bad. but is a very big bike,.. fast..image last time my bike only 150cc now is 400cc.. pickup not bad.. anyway cheaper then my last time bike. total $2784 take over. not inerest downpayment only $584.. cos take over my cousin bike.. can save lot . actuclly thought of buying super4 much nicer and power. but calcute total around 6k plus.. might well buy my cousin one.. anyway my dream is CBR600RR fireblabe $18k . so save money as it goes till my class 2 licence!!!!

Study! ( Diploma in Sale and Marketing)
Now waiting for MIS to sent mail to me, i have called them, and their reply is i going in... 18 july intake. ho ho ho.. got to save up!!.. i know i going to be tough for the next two years..
study + Work + Study + work - play = die early!
4K plus for studies. . luck goverment give money.. but still short of a lot.. maybe paying in installment!!

2006-03-04T06:16:00.000-08:00

haiz~~~ very poor now.. sad.. just take my new spec, feel sorry for bao xin and pammie.. i fly them airplane.. never go Holland V!!.. Later going fishing with boon and xing rong and his gf!

Now Jobs
1)Four Season/Commis cook 1
2)Ambush/Commis cook 1
3)ShipFreight/Sale

Haiz~~~ WHich one.
More coming out!

No mood to write blog cause at friend`s house!!
All friends take good care!!!

i am now jobless and i lost!

2006-02-10T03:18:00.000-08:00

Work till this Sunday.. and i jobless.... bacause, i resign. why? pay too low, nothing much to learn, must get out of there... suppose tell boss i work till this end of month.. but he said help him work tii sunday.. save his cost.. haiz~~~ then can have holidays?? No way.. work at taka as pasta cook first.. part time.. althought they did offer me to work full time for 1.4k. but i dun know why i dun wan.. maybe last time used to work there before.. not really interested.. and cooking is dead one.. same thing only.. pasta. and PASTA!!! but u can learn manage the kit..

Now jobless... Future is so dark, so many paths. Guys` future and career are very important lo.. if not.. girls mainly look at a guys` career. so must work hard. i dun mind hardship. but wat will becoming of me.. must earn how much.. to pay bill, marriage, kids, kids school fee, support my mum.... many many things.. u think 2k enough?? no way.. wait wan to buy car la, buy flats, so many things.. to support a family.. i think at least 4 to 5 k.. could i? in the future should i need my wife to work?? would she wan? haiz~~ now girls who wan to suffer with you.. all wan to be tai tai one.. haiz~~

Becoming an adult.. life is diff.. no more support from parent.. now my spec spoil.. cannot like last time, mum spec spoil, need to do.. NOW!! have see whether got buget to buy this buy that anot..

My pay is very low. Is not a bad thing anyway, this few month i work 2 jobs. i earn around 1.1k
Imagine 2 job only 1.2k... Now, where got singaporean wan to work.. but to me.. Yes,, is low. but can learn! and u know to spend well!! cos all hardship money, i earn 3k a month before.. but till now i never save that money.. but now.. i still manange to save around $400-$500 , and give household money. i realise save money is important.. for studies in the future... haiz~~~~

I lost.... anyone got job intro?

2006-02-07T07:33:00.000-08:00

Shit luck today.
fail my Tp... 32 points... cause of S course.. wobble in the S course. should be gear 2 to went.. i can`t engage to gear 2.. haiz~~~ need to spend money again.. around$70 to retake... fuck la. testers close one eye la.. anyway i got class 2b liao.. fuck up.. haiz~~~~~~ nvm.. take again
Next Tp 7/3/06.. must pass!!

Tml Off!! going out with Ah Yi(last time like LF one) he going to find a job at sg.. so i will help him to find his new work place. then afternoon maybe going swimming again or glym with gei xiong. then watch movie.. i not stupid too.. with lf, bx, jy, jeff, sx and gx..

This world is a training ground for you..
Will you be train?
Will you learn?
i will!!

Would you?

2006-02-03T07:30:00.000-08:00

Would you walk my path, when i just beside you?
Would you cross the road, when i hold your hand?
Would you dance, if i ask you to dance?
Would you laugh, when i telling jokes?
Would you cry, if you saw me cry?
Would you be trembling, when i touch your lips?
Would you be touch, when i give you my heart?
Would you love me, if i say i love you?

Would you be the one?

New Year Again!!

2006-02-01T03:45:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!!! today is 4th of chinese new year. been going and going out almost these few days execpt today. Nice feeling going to a lot alot of friends house and relative house too. a warming feeling!!! New year Great!!

New year Big day.
0000hrs at china town... COUNT DOWN AT MRT>>> with Jian Yu, Bao Xin and her friends.
Walk till 2plus went for supper. then home... at home watch ten brother(drama) Nice drama manage to complete it.Sleep till afternoon. have lunch with family and went back to sleep again till 7pm, then one of my cousin called and ask to join my father`s side relative.. in last min. i never thought of going there to pian nian.. hmm.. anyway really miss them. all my cousins.... play when we are really young. and i don`t really see them a lot..... then meet sec friends at jurong.. suppose to go river hao bao.. but i suggest straight go bao`s house.. cos got more time to gambling or chit chat.. they agree.... went her house play majong. WIN+ $9 then play blackjack. till 6 plus.. tired. with jian yu and me banker.. make a big kill. WIN + $120++ Yeah!! Then home to sleep in the morning!!

New year second big day
Wake up in the afternoon.. my mum went out to her friends. ask me to eat myself.. went to eat steam boat myself. lip sin wan me to go his house to see lion dance... went there with xin rong with his gf.. meet jeff and wee yong there too... see the 15min lion dance.. at his house eat steam boat again.then went to wee yong house to play cards WIN+ $10 until till 7pm. i wam . xin rong sent me to my cousin house. stay till 9plus WIN again. $12. then watch movie at jP.. memoir of geshi.. NICE!!! Sleep at 3plus!!!

New Year 3th big day.
went to watch movie with bao xin, jian yu, pamine and daphne.. watch fearless.. not bad! then went to xin rong gf house.. eat steam boat again,, and gambling again... LOSE+ $8... haiz~~~ then went to chev sing K!!! went home at 3 plus!!

Hmmm. Start work tml at taka 6pm to 930pm.

Black In White

2006-01-19T18:38:00.000-08:00

I am back in white.. Back in kitchen again.. Saute onions, garlic and vegetable... Chop, Peel, Cut, mash, Slice.... themes in Kit! Wearing those smart chef uniform... A white 12 button shirt, a black pants, a hat on my head. aporon on my waist... Getting to go a big war... i mean hot zone!!!
Time is 6pm... i going to cook pasta!!!! till 9.30..
My second job again!!
For earning extra for my future!!!

Haiz~~~ now my mum not going to support my fianacial.. I never blame her, somehow i think i not mature enough.. can`t think well!! my mum is 49 this year.. she is getting old.. must i let her work till so old.. and somemore i have a useless brother.. mum can only count on me.. i still wan to study at this point of time!! hmmm i think my mum save up her money better.. in case of anything happen.. touch wood..
So studies goes into soup!!! but of course i not giving up... maybe save up money first....
But i really want to study.... i thought i could study when i can manage the school fee with my mum support.
Now to get along with my studies... i can loan from the bank... for 4 years.. i have to paid $410 every month!!. interest is $2112!!!
Or i go sell backside!!! haha

Decree?? maybe diploma?? haha.. maybe next year... maybe this year. Life still goes on!!!

Bachelor of science(Hon) in Entrepreneurship & Management

2006-01-11T07:05:00.000-08:00

This is the course i want to study. To me, it is quite interesting. Manage your own business, Sound Fun!! challange!

I can study this course because of its criteria is age 21 mature candidates, Full gce A level, or another diploma. I have the age criteria..

3 years of part time study.. somepple said.. will be very tough.. and for me.. it like N level going for dercee.. a very big.. will be ver tough.

Can i study well?? my friend are doing well at aus.. he is studying dercee at there.. still manage to score great grade. Can i ??

Now my mum going to support some financial. just i need to pay her everymonth.. is the same la.. just that i pay her not the bank..

hmm.. is a big decision, it will change my life..

A whole New Year

2006-01-06T06:44:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. without knowing.. is 2006... i am 22.. in the middle age of life.. where u have put your sock up... this because you dun do it well.. your future can`t be well... I am 22.. Plan to studies, Plan wat is be the future. So many things about life... who i will going to be or wat i am doing the next 20s...

2006 Goals,
1) Get a Business Studies Diploma or dercee. but dercee 3 years
2) Learn a New Laugange (japanese or French)
3) Get class 4 & 5 Liecnse 2A Soon!!!
4) Diving liecnse( last year goal) will it be next year?
5) Dun get a gf this year
6) Earn More Money$$$

Set A Goal,
Make A Goal.
Thats Life!!!

Life Is fulls of up and Down..SO Cheers!!!

Is Sick Season!

2005-12-29T00:41:00.000-08:00

ohh... i think i am sick... head very heavy.. Throat very dry and pain, Keep on coughing and coughing.. body feel very hot... HO HO HO merry christmas.. is a flu!! bird flu? hhaha must be yesterday i went swimming, get sunburn, and at night time. i was running in the rain... SICK!!!.. long time never sick liao.. hohoho!! * cough* cough*

Tired.. but still have to work... still manage to crawl to work..

Yesterday went to ps with jeremy(kap) went to mdis to enquire something.. want to study a course call bachelor of business and entrepreneurs. To be a boss one day.. haha.. guess wat the amount is 18k plus another 4k for campus at UK for 2 weeks.. ON MY GOD.. many question pop in my head
1) Where find such money.
2) My currenty diploma have no related with this course.
3) Could i able to handle work and study ???
4) I want to get (hons), Can i ??
5) I dun have O levels. my english fuck up.. i go there study. must be crazy!

But most important. Financial problem. is not just 4 k or 7k.. is 18k.. how to study?

A BEST GIRL I EVER SEEN!!! MUST READ!!!

2005-12-26T07:57:00.000-08:00

Just chat with a girl called Adeline… Got to know her from SPH. Singapore Press Holding. A place where people going to place ads at straits times or Chinese paper. I know her because I always went there to help my company putting ads. She is quite a cute and helpful girl.

Now imagine her knowledge, 1 Diploma in business management at informatics, Now study in Mdis ( Degree in Business in Management) and still study ( Diploma in psychology ) , Study 2 course at a time, still manage to work in SPH everyday. She know to speak at least 5 Language (Cantonese, English, Korean, France, Chinese) Which I think she can speak more than that. She knows to cook where I think nowadays, Girls just know to cook maggi . She now only 20!!! What can I say?
She is the best girl I ever meet!

She kept on telling me to study. I think I know her, really give me a big help. A girl like her, can do all these things. Why not for guys. Come on, I can do it too. By myself!
Her Aspects should be a very strong career girl. Guess what she said she want to be???
A great mother. I may wondering what she thinking. She wanted to get married at a age of 23. Oh my god, a mother? Very weird. Hmmm, Girls really very weird animals. Some want be that, some wan to be this. Really Funny. Men will never guess ladies` thinking.

Is Chirstmas!!

2005-12-23T03:42:00.000-08:00

Merry merry christmas..
i walk alone this empty street,
Is a lonely white christmas,

Lonely lonely Christmas
May i have you in my dreams??

Is Christmas.. a day for celebrating... haha.. now at home slacking.. no $$$ to go out... so better stay at home. wondering all my friends doing wat... they must be having fun... just went out for dinner with my family... haiz~~ boring day.. imagine i sleep until 3pm.. i still feel very tired.. hmmm.. yesterday did went to count down ... at a pub called The Rock.. as well as celebrating Xing Rong 22 birthday... haha.. hmmm...

Is going to be 2006... times really really files... going to be 22.. so sad.. older..

Fishing & Fishing

2005-12-13T21:18:00.000-08:00

In this small country, there is nothing much you can do, watch movie, clubbing, makan, play games, nothing much, unlike other country, there is a lot of things for you to enjoy...

SO FISHING!!!!!

Fishing sport can say you dun need a lot of money to do it, unlike golf, water jet, or watever. so $$$$$...

These off days been fishing.. haha. yesterday just want fishing with xing rong and his gf... went to a lot of fishingplace.. 3 places. starting from 8am to 6pm.. SUNBURN!!!..

From 8am to 11am...
Went to fetch them, then going to kranji res, see the beautiful nature.. nice.. still can breath in the fresh air.. on the a long brigde, one side is the res, another side is the sea which a have view of malaysia... .. can see pple catching cray fish... everything is so nice, expect..... NO CATCH! &###*$#!!!!!

From 1130am to 1330pm...
Went to Mandai res.. another nice nice view.. i ahead to fish, But no fish too... haiz~~~ no luck mah... saw some monkeys running around.. we feed them some food..... NO CATCH AGAIN!!! ##$%&#$!!!!

From 1500pm to 1800pm
Have bought some food to eat.. went to seaside now.. fishing saltwater.. a place call pungol ... very ver hot now.. everyone is as black as my car`s tyres.. hmmm at there waiting to see any fish.. looking at the sea, hear the wind blowing.. Suddenly.....!!!!!!! xing rong rod kanna fish.. he keep shouting FISH FISH!!!... and then!!!!!!!! #$%$#*8888!!! Flower crab... haiz~~~ we wan fish la.. after all. . 1 Catch... i mean NO CATCH!!!!

Fishing is a great sports... hmm althought no fish.. i will still like to go fishing.. maybe next week going to fishing at malaysia.. yeah!!!

Fishing will be in my dream....everytime.. i just dun know why.. i dream i alway go fishing and always get a lot of big fish.. but in real... never so much... if dream comes true.. haha!!!!!

I am too naive, too foolish... pain make a scar on my heart.

2005-12-09T03:30:00.000-08:00

I am too naive,
To believe there is a fairy tale,
To believe every story comes with a happy ending,
You show me the truth.

I am too stupid,
To wait for you,
To love you forever,
You left without giving an answer.

I am too foolish,
Been fool by love,
Been fool what i been waiting for.

I am lost,
But i will find my way,
without you.

Haiz~~~ someone say i too naive... ya, i agree.. i always been naive..believe in love. should not step in love too much... there always fact in this world... i had to be fact, in my dream, i alway dream of impossible. Dream to have a house by the side of the sea, where no one else, just you and me, happily grow our vegetables, rear some animals, maybe a pig and a monkey... i mean dogs is cuter than this 2 animals.. haha, maybe a big lake is beside our house too, so we can go fishing, padding with a boat, and there is always a sunset view, at night there is always a lot alot of stars shinning brightly... sometime , when quite boring, we always have friends in town, so we just take a 15min driving to town, catch up with friends. new movie?? lets watch it. our climate is cool, 17 C.. in dec, is snowing... have snow fighr, build a snowman, maybe after that , have 2 children, one boy and girl, you teach how spell love, i teach how to cook......

In dreams only......

Think too much...

I am not saying big words

2005-12-04T22:05:00.000-08:00

Haiz~~~ Lip Sin go army liao, Boon also in army, Gei xiong , Jian Yu in army for 5 months liao.. Left me.. ORD LOH!! no one to go out.. weekdays then i off.. can ask who out??? most of my friends will be working on weekdays too.. haiZ~~~ sian.. ALONE.

Something quite hurtful.. when she said ( Say only wat.. never do.. guys always like that.. that y i dun want to have a boyfriend).. Very angry about this things... ya i say only ... she said until i no pride.. yes i nothing now... i said this words is to help me , to make me work harder.. maybe is a dream, maybe it could happen, you can have douts on me.. but never look down on me.. haiz~~ girls now very fact.. then must i do the things i said, then you will like me?? no.. at that time i will not like you liao. cos i like girls that willing to help me when i was down, not when i was sucess. Hmmm, maybe she used to guy saying big words, but i am not.... i just saying out my dreams... not saying these to make you like me.. you pig!!!#@=+#@!!!

Sat(3/12/05)
Lip sin go army lo.. take good care inside.. BMT very shiok one, healthy life style... can silm down lo.. later become a very yao tao guy..

Fauziah married loh.. haha happy for her.. all the best.. attended her wedding.. meet a lot of old managers of KAP.. haha miss them, got Kim wei, Roger, Rachel, Alan,Violet, Derick, Jack and Serene( i like her very much.. last time at there, she always take car of me... LIKE HER LIKE HER)

Later.. is old crew outing... going to a place( dun know where). a pub.. go there sit down have some drinks.. chit chat a lot... then is malaysia.. Yi bao, edwin, kai nam and me going to malaysia.. we were crews from kap.. Yeah!! long time never see them too.. enter JB at around 11plus.. go to danga bay for shisha smoke, have supper.. watch football.. hmm then pretol the car went to JB custom at 2am, left there for 3 plus .. jam... haiz~~~ tired.. i was the one drivin the whole night.. F**K they all suan suan at there sleeping. haiz~~ still have to work on sunday..

And most of all.. sat(3.12.05) hui wen birthday... happy birthday...... all the best wishes for you... take good care.. !!!!

Stress la

2005-11-19T06:36:00.000-08:00

Wed nite
Went to jack and lip` chalet to celebrate their birthday.. haha .. a alot of friends there... saw kai nam... jing ser and jing mei.. long time never saw them liao.. we tong the night till 3 pm.. tired.. the next day we are still going to malaysia...

Thur
Haiz! wake up around 9am.. getting ready to move out the chalet.. so tired.. still have to drive toyota GTR horsepower up 450. so dangous.. haha send them back and move out to woodlands park the toyota gtr there and we walk in.... went to city square.. watch move.. watch wat ghost stories.. makes me can`t sleep well at night..#%*&$# i dun like to watch horror movie.. pls dun ask me out for this... no choice.. we watched.. haiz~~ actually a not bad show.. after that went to holiday inn plaze.. went there i brought some clothes and comics... thought of buying DVDs.. ha better not... sg too strict... went to a place(dun know the name) 7 person ordered a lot alot alot of foods... guess how much ?? $210?? N ON ON ON Oooo only $80 - 90... in Rigget.. WOW.. one person SGD $8.... WOWOWW if eat in sg... one person should be around $15 to $20....... wow tired .. and went back to sg...

Fri
Work ... later watch harry potter with lip and boon. ... NICE 4 stars out of 5 stars... like it...

Haiz~~~ tried.. so many things to do... i think i never try my best to finish my work.. my banners and name card.. is not yet ready.. any time i will kana scold by my boss.. too many things in my mind..i can`t make.. too weak. need to go forum sell our company.. need to do ther do this... too many things.. and always think about her.... haha.. end up i always forget to do things.. haiZ~~ i need a small note book.. to write down wat must be done.. haha.. i can handle it.... i know i can.... Tired.............

Things i been Doing

2005-11-11T00:32:00.000-08:00

yoo.. i just watch a dvd... VERY VERY NICE.. i like it ... is American Pie Band Camp. I give 4 and a half stars out of 5 stars... NICE~~~~ i like it.. funny and very sweet.. about a guy( a brother of last few eq of americal pie) who was in school doing a lot mess.. a lot of stupid things.. and he kana caught. was punish to go to a camp called band camp.. this guy suppose to join the band and learn the lesson.. but his plan was to video all the big boos girls... in nude... but turn out to be a very very sweet story... NICE... i like the girl in the band.. she is very sweet... maybe you borrow the DVD from me.. NICE... maybe you dun like it... but i like it.. not because of the nude.. the story... the guy at last turn to be good... WATCH IT?>>

I just brought a game.. star craft... old game.. but nice to play... althought play before .. but this time i wan to know the story... i buy at $39.90... last time use to be around $79.90//So just brought and play to destress... haha

Wed.. went for a jog.. i think i been sackinh a lot.. run around 4km.. like wan to die.. timing slower .. last time no kick... haiz~~~ OLD LIAO>>

At company... a lot of things to do... do sale, do marketing, need to orders items, my company starting polishing.. i need to look for product.. wat need to order wat dun need.. many things to do.. do banner... shit.. got anyone recommand a banner maker?? i dun wan to design my banner.. very ugly... i need to design intro of my polishing, tinting.... haiz~~ i become multi- task person.. need to go SPH to put ads.. but go there not bad.. a lot of pretty girls.. hmmm anyone got any ideas for me. for better ads marketing ... ??

Ok la... Birthdays coming up.. IRENE 20 LO>> OLD OLD OLD>>> haha HOPE YOU ARE ALWAYS SWEET SWEET ONE AND GET A GOOD GUY TO MARRY OFF>>>

LIP SIN ALSO .. 22 lo.. be a tought guy always... may you sign on sucessful... get a great gf... who you really like.. and she really likes you.. be paitent.. a lot of time..

Kai mei.. 20 also... dun know where she have been... all the best..

Jack... ohh really old liao.. 27? haha Take care your heathly... Stay heathly always....

Could you tell me i have to wait till when??
Till the world end??

2005-11-01T02:05:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. Back to blog something.

I wish i could hold your hands,
Looking at your eyes,
and say:

I love you.....

But you are so far and ao high,
I can`t even reach you.

Haiz~~~ my studies plan going to soup.... no enough money to study... my last time boss not going to play me liao... haiz~~~ no choice.. But i going to make him pay for it...

Hmm.. last Thurs went to sentosa.. SHoik.. A lot of gals.. haha sunburn.. quite fun to go out with my sec friends.. haiz~~~ Days really pass.. now monday liao.. i thought i yesterday just went to sentosa.. TIMES FLIES...

This whole week can say i never really talk to her... so sad.. A kind of missing feeling... hmmm.

My pay only $980... can you believe.. wat the hell... no sale at all.... eat shit lo.. outside work cook still have around 1 K PLUS.. Nevermind... must work... haiz~~
'
Missing you...
Like missing something important...
Where have you been..

Just let me cry again.

2005-10-21T20:05:00.000-07:00

Cry..
Just let me cry again,
Let my tears drop,
Like my love for you dripping out from my heart,
Dripping till the last drop,
Let me keep the last drop,
Keep as memoies...

Let me cry,
So i won`t miss you again,
So you won`t appear in my dreams,
You will just become part of my memoies.

But i just can`t cry,
Maybe if you told me how...

Hiaz~~ sian.. two weeks no off... next week going to take a good rest... my health been bad to worse.. need to train up a bit.. plan to go running this coming off... hmmm.. maybe fishing??.. no kaki le.. my friends... getting more and more going to army... next time weekdays i off.. can ask who out?? yesterday went swimming, swim 10 lap... tired like shit.. hand pain, leg pain... i going to make myself fit.... haha lazy la.. wan to go for a great holiday.... lankawai?? malaysia?? curise?? hmmm...

I decide not to purse the answer she wan to give... not going.... been trying this few weeks.. there always no answer.. i dun wan to fan her anymore... making her stress... so to make myself stress free about the answer... let me forget about this love thing....

Waiting just for you

2005-10-18T08:49:00.000-07:00

One day,
We holding hands walking along the beach,
Chatting and joking,
Sit and lying on the beach,
Looking and counting the shining stars,
Telling great story on the gory star,
There always be two stars between the moon,
Two star separate across the space,
Althought they far each others, they shine their Love,
Showing they how caring they are,
Even they are far far far away,
They won`t shine for even one day,
They know they will meet one day......

You ask me,
If One day, We were separate from each others,
Will i be the stars shinning my love....
I hold your hands, Looking at your eyes,
I may not be the shinning star in this world,
But i shine as much as i can,
To let you see there is a guy waiting for you in the darkness,
Please tell me you are there too...
Shine some love......
Please...
Let me know you love me...
It give me strengh and courage.

As you heard my feeling,
You cried, I hug you tightly,
Like we are going to separate forever,
Yes, it true,
You will be gone forever,
Let me tell you again,
I LOVE YOU....

In my dream, you are always in my arms.
In reality, you are your own, i still alone...

When will you enter my dream and make my dream become reality....
When can i tell the great stories?
The answer..
I am waiting....

What am doing???

2005-10-14T01:53:00.000-07:00

Sian... work and work is all i have... haiz~~~ tired... i change my job ... same line different company. actcool solar film Minus- D group... that where i am... At turf city again... same place, same colleague just different boss. sian... going to saleman in my life??? No way, going to be boss myself.... going to earn more money.... My old company own me $$$... no $ to buy anything... damm poor.... plan to take another job.. my pasta shop at taka.. to earn some extra$$.. althought the pay is damm less.but i like to cook... haiz~~~~ nevermind, i will surive...

TIreD of working... tirEd Of Be A hUman....

Haiz~~~ she never give me real answer.. wat the hell... asking me when i like her.. starting from when.... why??? just tell me u got feeling to this pig anot... is it so hard.?? this pig really likes this monkey... wan to be with her... she never give her answer.. let pig dumb dumb wait... Why she kept on siam the question.... is it pig very thick skin?? she siam beco she dun wan to lose this pig as a friend?? haiz~~ just tell pig... he will still be friend with monkey.. as he likes her, dun wan to lose her as a friend too.. but dun let him wait.....

Story 2

2005-10-06T20:39:00.000-07:00

Pig really fall in love with monkey. But do monkey have feeling with pig, after all he done??? Actually pig never done much things, just give her present on her birthday, ask her for movie, go out...... But if one day, monkey got anythings she needs help.... pig promsie he will be the first to be there....

After days passes, pig have a date with monkey, going to malaysia for a movie.... is fun and enjoyble, But pig find out monkey have someone in mind, she likes a guy in her school, pig was sad like a sword stuck into his heart... somehow, after knowing monkey so long, pig knows wat type of guy she likes, exp. mature, do work seriously, friendly, helpful, stable and confident guy, able to led her when she lost...... To pig..... hahahaha.. wat pig have??? lazy, lost, childlish pig.. Who will likes this pig, Girls with pig, may suffer with him.... maybe.....

Wat pig going to do?? .... On her birthday night before pig went to her house downstair, holding a birthday cake(actually a panda cake cos can`t find other cake, very last min) with a candle(very hard to find)... too bad, monkey slept already... sad as to give her a surprise.... tried to ask her out... bring her to night safari.... she is not free, she got her own friends to celebrate with her... No chance to celebrate her birthday... of course.. he is just a pig after all...

I think god is playing with pig... he saw monkey again... at his workplace`s coffee shop. she was having a attachment at UBI.... this time he not going to give up... Expressss the love...

Pig did it.... monkey have came out an answer for him..............
Story contiune...
And it will be the End...

Lot to say

2005-10-01T19:46:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time i never update my dusty blog, cos of no net serving on my home and due to work.. A lot of things happen, hmmm...

On Fri, hahaha prepare to watch the corspe bride(i wanna to watch) with boon, Xing rong and his gf but too bad, the last show start at 8 pm, and we reach there around 830pm... ohhh my show gone.. hmmm, end up watching andy lau movie. not bad, quite meaning, Time flowing fast, dun wait too much...
hahaha, saw someone with a girl watching that show also... haha , somemore i vieocam them, very funny... and this guy is attach with tat girl...

On Sat, meet up my army guys. Most of them ORD LOH! Miss the time when we were at the MTI, so fun.. we have supper at ALhar, catch up alot, till 2+am hmmm (got johnny and his gf, Daniel, eugene, siddq, zuk, aiyu,Vitaya...)
Guys, we were drivers too!

At work, My pay... is held up. a thousand over is held up, i feel like quiting it. boss no money to pay a lot a lot of pple`s salary, i really dun know my company can last how long.. got a friend recommand me to his workplace to work, is the same thing,(solarfilm) but the pay there is stable, sure get your payroll at the rite time, should i go there??

An answer,
Waiting for that,
Why you have no answer?

Life is just like on the road.

2005-09-18T03:20:00.000-07:00

Life is just like driving on the road,
At first, we need to learn to drive, precaution on the road,
Someone will guide you during your learning,
Some test drive, and get our licence,

And we are ready for the road,
Everyone have their destination,
where they want to be,
where they want to go.
But the desinton we wan to go,
There will be no map,
No one will be beside you to guide you the road,
You have to chose your own road,
Turn left?
Turn Right?
Straight?
Your own choice.
Turn the wrong way?
Look for U turn,
You might waste sometime....

Some wrong ways,
You may not turn back again,
Take the express way?
You need to speed up,
But be carful, You may met accidents.

Life is just like on the road,
Have your destination?
Have you start your engine?

Walk alone does not mean u are alone

2005-09-10T03:16:00.000-07:00

No one will love me,
I won`t let anyone love me,
I won`t bring future to yours,
Don`t hold my hand,
I will take off it,
Cos i not the one,
The one who use to care for you,
And love you,

I am no more,
I had change,
Evils enter my heart,
You could have stop it,
But everythings is too late,
There will be no time machines,
Don`t love me again
I not the one you love,
The one whom you use to care,
And love me,

Let me dissappered in your dream,
Forget me,
And you will have your happiness,
I had become a devil,
Not the angel in the sky anymore,
But a lousy in the hell,
No more heartlander,
But a no feeling devil,
Won`t love you again....

Haiz~~~ sacking at office again, nothing to do, sale getting bad to worse.... die, eat wind... hmmm sad.
Wat the hell am i doing.... haiz~~~ wan to go for a holiday...... sian. later meeting lip sin...

Let the wild love be gone,
Dun let them bother me,
It make me lost again and again,
Let me drop my tears for nothing,
sad for weeks,
there always be nothing,
No ending,
Waste my time,
Let it be gone....

Where is the love?

2005-09-04T01:40:00.000-07:00

Where is the love?
Where everyone searching for?
When will it come....

Haiz~~~ long time never update my blog. hmm now i suppose to be working, but i sack at office surfing net. haha,

To friendS,
Hello irene, long time never come out, sorry been busy. wan to go hoilday?? lip sorry, sat i really really wan to go it show one, but one of my friend MC, no choice, must stay back to help, Boon... how is army?? POP liao rite? post to where? Tricia.. hmmm be a good air strewdart le.. dun be sad liao, there are so many good guys around (ThatS ME).
Fly with your dream... ge xiong and jian yu, when u all wan to come out?? now botak lo..POP? ge xiong u also write blog liao? haha look thru your blog is like my army life. yup it will change u.. bao xin.. are u going to find a job?? u are a really good life girl. haha been 4 months i think. too sack ... Joyner, hmm study hard le. next time go your house again(do wat??) haha cut hair la... ahah

Hmm. time really files... going to year end, my bike no more. getting poorer and poorer. haha haiz~~ decide to get more knowledage. studies!!! hmmm life science? business? marking?cuinarny? which path? i wan to learn all...

hmmm going back to work...

Story

2005-08-01T06:53:00.000-07:00

A pig sat down on the grass, thinking of someone. Someone who is not with him.

Thinking back their past, Could they be together??? A pig and a monkey,

they are different, Can they spark the love??

Pig get to know this cute monkey by his animal`s friends. At first, they just msg each other, later, they find out more on each others. they began to chat on phone. Pig found out that he could get along with monkey. So pig try to know more about monkey, But sometime monkey is busy with her studies. Anyway pig think they just friends only. Pig knows, try not to disturb her too much.

By their friends, they went out for a fishing trip. Went to a seaside, Began their fishing, it is the first time pig met monkey. yup, it is really a monkey, she kept running around, run there run here, see others fishing. Pig just try to get his big fish... and their friends trying to make pig and monkey more closer... After all the running, monkey began to rest, so she just stand beside pig, Pig still fishing.. so they standing there fishing and chatting.

Chat and chat, suddenly, pig caught a fish. pig put the fish out and left his rod on the stand. But suddenly the rod fall off, monkey go and catch it. her hand kana hook, pig saw it and quickly put it off...

After a month, Pig wanted to ask monkey outing again, they went for movies, bowling. actually not much. just a few times.

Because of monkey always busy with her studies, pig never really ask her out liao,

So calls become msg, a msg a day, become a week, become a month....

And they really busy their work, pig have to service the country and work in a pasta shop, Monkey busy with her projects and exams.

After sometime, pig found his love, was quite happy, but turn out... haiz~~~

Monkey found out, talk with pig, make hime feel better.

Once again, they went out again.....

And Pig has fallen love with monkey..

Story contiune...

Happy Birthday....

2005-07-25T09:22:00.000-07:00

To Li Er,
Happy Bithday to you. Sorry, can`t pass you the present in time. hope you dun mind. I can`t meet you too, been busy with work. haha, anyway hope u like wat i gave you,
1) Cookies!!! specially bake by a pig... Fresh but dun know nice anot..
2) Prefume, Very sweet prefume, Not that u smell bad.. Just make u even sweetter.
3) Cute Monkey name Xiao Kong, A monkey related to you!! haha, when u are sad, just hold tight him, he will make you feel happy, So let the unhappniess come.. you have xiao kong.
4)A BIG bag of bananas. i think i own you that, always said i will give you bananas.
5)Dried flowers, some are from New Zealand lo.. some are from stores.

Thats all, hope u will like it...

So next week is study week, and exam is coming, all the best,

May all your wishes come true.

Anyway just to tell you something.

i dun know you read these anot,

Pig likes monkey.

Weakness within Me...

2005-07-19T04:41:00.000-07:00

I feel weak...
My heart are so weak,
My brain can`t think anymore...

I actually a very weak guy,
Just look strong on the outside,
I can`t really handle my problems,
When something crop up,
I feel very weak,

I am weak to resisent anyone,
Even throught i have my point,
I never bring up,
Feel so sad....

In relationship, I have so much failure in love,
Cos i am weak,
Never ever presisent on it,
Easily give up when even there is no answer,
I am a failure...
I am weak...
I am sad...
Where is my angel???

Haiz~~~~ so sad.. so many unhappy things happen to me this month,
1) have an accident, quite serious, i should have die... need to pay $1200.
2)Because of the accident, i need to pay pretol for the car which my company need to use..($630)
3)My bike have been tow away. cos my fault, never pay the installment($470)
4)Worse of all, my bro use my name for internet and his phone, i got a big bill($1100)
5) say by my boss, compare me with another guy, feel so useless. and can to sack me.

i serious in debt.. very demortal in work... i weak...
But some how. my sale manager and some col willing to share my 2) pretol money.
Anyway thanks for some friends who willing to help,
Somehow i will settle my own,

Haiz~~~ working at andy and bill really very insecure, very demortal, no feeling to work at there.. i admint that i not very good, but you can`t compacy me like that... i have my own goods... haiz~~~ friends got any good job, recommand me... haha

Went to taka last time i work there.. is reopening... somehow i dun have the feeling to work there agian... dun know why... pay too low?? die... really hard for pple from so high to this low... how... i lost ..

Weakness within me, i feel weak even the smallest happen...

2005-07-16T10:21:00.000-07:00

HMm.. Long time never update my blog liao... haiz~~ been busy and tired, everytime reach home around 12+... my mum going to grinch on me...

At company,
Been happening a lot of things there... one of the worker have been fired. he actually a nice person... but temper too hot, go and confront the boss... haiz~~~ dun know wat he doing, maybe he feeling too very good... hope boss could forgive him... let him join back our force...

To one of my buddy,
Hey. dun said you have ten bad point... cos
1) fat but friendly wat.. who care...
2)Ugly but you are nice person...
3)Stupid(not really wat) but you are very knowleagde guy.. know alot of things
4)Lazy but at the right time, you still help.. and do your best..
5)Likes to lies but you are just making jokes...
6)Sweat alot & haf odor smell but you lose weight.. sweat more..
7)eat too much is a good thing.. sometime can help a girl finish her food
8)Childish( not really) guy always have a mature side, just girl not see it..
9)Stalker/ guys is like tat one.. but you never fool around.. no gf wat..
10)No manner.. got meh.. u see my mum, u also call her anutie wat...

Love,
Haiz~~~ she seem cold towards me... very hard to ask her out.... haiz~~~~

Chef or a saleman??

2005-06-29T13:39:00.000-07:00

last evening, i met steve and stanley, stanley is one of my boss in L`emzonie( last time i work, a pasta resturant) . he offer me a 1.4k to be chef de partie... haha hmm am i going back in white?? kitchen?? 1.4k is quite high in the market.... but not as high as my pay now.. but working hrs will not be so long, work load won`t be so much.... it just getting hotter only... hmm give him the answer on mid of july...But working in kitchen give me more secure in my career, instead of my current job, dun know when i will kanna sack.. no prospect there... nothing much to learn... haiz~~~~ hmmm life are so lost to me now... i have to chose my path, where should i stand?? when should i walk?? who should i meet???

My story, my family, my mum...
Now is 510am, i can`t sleep well, haiz~~~ maybe sleep too much in the afternoon.
hmmm... nothing much to said, times really flies, now is going to july,
Went to a cousin`s wedding. saw my relative.. it been 3 yrs i never saw them, miss the time when we are small, we always play at ah gong house.... but things change , when i was 13, my mother separate with my dad. so it been long i never saw them.. only once in 2002 new year time.. pay a visit on them... haha... i just realise i got a new baby cousin. he only 3 yrs old.. haha cute guy.. hug him for a while.. In the wedding, when my ah gong saw me, he cried... dun know why.. maybe i too handsome.. haha anyway remember my mum told me that my ah gong dun wan us... maybe he cried because i still willing to visit,, haiz~~~ anyway all the things happen liao.. all is past, dun wish to bring out.. just hold his hand... ni hao ma?? must take care...
hmm... my father still the same, haiz~~~ dun know wat to say... i hope i won`t be like him, i will work hard... will not be playboy and slacker, lazy like him(that y my mother separate with him) not a good husband, always bully my mum.. anyway since the separate, i never call him pa pa... i know my dad was dead...... i dun really hate him, without him, i will not be here.. but he should be happy to have a good wife like my mum... he should be very sorry to my mum.. not to me... my mum suffer a lot... so is my turn to let my mum be happy.. sorry mum, i never really care for you... but i will....

A letter.

2005-06-23T05:24:00.000-07:00

Blk 5, Hershearts,
Lovestreet, #512-1314,
S`pore 51205

Blk 160, Myhearts,
Lonelystreet,#215-1314,
S`pore 215160
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To her,

Hello, how have you been doing? You seem to be busy, i really hope to share your buren, althought i have mine. Have you eaten your lunch, must take care yourself le...

Do you know something, i think pig really fall in love with monkey. How? do you think they will be together?

I try to be there for you.

For you that you dun know my heart.

Looking in your eyes, give me a special feeling. Talking to you, that is no lies between.

Walking with you, thinking of hold your hand. Watching movie, give you hugs to keep you warm.

I am falling in love with you. Wanted to tell you, but i so weak.

I dun wan to lost you,Cos i love you...

Now,

You are in my mind everyday, i tried to make you out of my mind.. somehow i can`t.

I told myself, No... no love, cannot like you... But somehow i can`t.

Why,

I am failure in love, 4 times relation is a failure.

I afriad you will become the 5th.

Dun wan to hurt you...

I not a very good guy anyway, dun really know how to coax a girl, sorry if i make you angry.

I know, i not the one you love. I just a normal friend to you, but to me, you are not,

I have special feeling on you, i hope to take away, but i can`t. Sorry...

And do you know something, i had that special feeling when i know you.

Do you heard my heart???

By your lover pig,

Love Poem came...

2005-06-22T08:16:00.000-07:00

Love poem came,
When someone enter your path,
Be a part of your life.
When a star shine u,
Brighten your life.
When she is the one,
Staying beside you...
Love poem will come to your mind,
Thought of writing it to you,
Before it came to your mind,
It goes throught your heart,
That is Love Poem...

Love and Dream

I dream of becoming a strongest person,
But i am so weak,
I dream of becoming a richest person,
But i am so poor,
I dream of becoming a handsome person,
But i am so ugly,
I deam of becoming a sucesseful person,
But i give up half way,

I dream of flying in the sky,
But i fall without my wings

I cry...

But you came.....

You give me dreams that i really want,
You make me stronger by running with me,
You make me save money by giving me love,
You make me look great in your heart,
You make me sucess by encourage me,
You make fly but i fall,
I will fall into your hugs.....

Even those dream don`t come true,
But i know...
i won`t dream again,
Because i have you,
My dreams are true,
I love you.....

Missing Someone

2005-06-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

After so many days... i miss someone, someone not in SG

Missing her smiling face, her voice, her cute patten, everything of her.

Missing her, wanted to talk to her, wanted her to feel my sadness and happyness,

Wanted to know what she is doing, talk to me, my missing person,

Hopping to see her again....

very tired... everytime i am very tired... work is getting heavy, no off this week, next week also.. My life begin to lose colours, Stars dun shine on me again, feel so tired, let me rest.....

Haiz~~~~ just brought a new phone s700i... haha no time to find out the function... i like this phone...very style....NICe, now i am broke...

One more thing... sorry to some friends... u all kpet asking me out.. but due to work.. i can`t... very sorry... i also wan to some out with you all... take care..

One World Different Lifes..

2005-06-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

One Love different kind of feeling ,
One life different kind of ending,
One food different kind of person,
One word different kind of outcome,
One flower different kind of smell,
One father different kind of sons,
One money different kind of lifestyle
One man different kind of lady
One lady different kind of man,
One heart different kind of love
One you different kind of me......

Very tired, keep on working and working, must wake up... and do my work properly..... .haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

One World Different Lifes..

2005-06-12T08:32:00.000-07:00

To someone who need love...

2005-06-09T09:16:00.000-07:00

I know you needs love,
I need it too,
Everyone needs it too.

When you are lonely,
When you are sad,
When you are down,
You need someone,
Someone to be by your side,
Someone to cheer you up,
Someone to catch when you are fallen,

You need the love....
But will you give love to the someone...
Someone who cares
Who love you???

For someone who think that someone love you more than you love someone is better,
Dun hurt the someone who love you,
Love the someone,
Someone who love you....

Love is simple..... search it clearly and you know.

Where is the Love??? U left me all alone....

2005-06-06T07:48:00.000-07:00

Where is the fairy Tale that i dream off?

Daydream, Nightdream,
Just hopping dream come true,
Dayworking, Nightworking,
Just Hopping Pay be better,
Daysearching, Nightsearching,
Just hopping to see you again
Daycaring, Nightcaring,
Just hopping you will love me.....some days.....

This month pay... eat grass lo, never hit sale record... die lo... eat wind also.. haiz~~~~ work are getting stressful... not easy.. anyway, i been promote from sale execuite to senior sale execuite.... so wat.. pay is still the same... my boss told me that i have 3 months probation, see whether i could cope and manage a shop... wanted to promote me to sale manager..... stress lo... not easy at all.. the most for me .. just let me be a ass manager i dun wan so fast be a manager... i can`t cope it lo... some customer i can`t handle well, only my current sale manager can do it well.... althought some time he bur bur one... but he is a nice guy...

Some strong force, Want me to work hard.... save some money... starting business with some friends, any business.. earn money... sometime u working in a business is fun...with helps of some friends... i know is not easy... but won`t give up without a try.. just need some friends with same thinking with me..... just need some really close and great friends... give me time and money... i will start it...... althought i inexpirence...

I think the force came from my company, cos i see a very small company become huge... althought is a black shop... haiz~~~ no choice... business is like that , hmm

Friends.... boon keong, ge xiong, jian yu must take good care at army... anyway wan to tell u a very important things... I ORD loh.... haha 2 yrs very fast... take good care..

Love her....or...... not

2005-06-01T07:33:00.000-07:00

FoR SoMeOne Who LoVing... CaRInG.... WaitInG..... FoR hER

To Him,

We were great buddies,
Tell us.... what u can`t tell us,
Let us know ur inside your heart,
Althought we know her.....

I Should know...
Should know earlier,
Since that day u are drunk,
And u think of her......

Why u likes her,
Is it what u want???
No i think...
Or u just too lonely???
Dun let loneliness led u bindly...

Anyway, i also dun know wat the hell she wan....
She is not strong enough... She can`t stand up on herself...
So she let him led her life.....
To somewhere she can`t turn back...
WAKE UP MY FRIEND>>>>>
DUN LET HIM RUIN U>>>>>
YOU ARE A GREAT GAL, U FIND SOMEONE>>>>
BETTER AND TRUTHY LOVE U>>>
WAKE UP...

anyway... if she can`t stand up on her own... No one can`t help... she is on her own....
If we can help.... this problem is solve long ago, it won`t drag until now... that she is still dropping tear. silly girl, wasting her tears for someone who dun worth it, when i die, then u cry is worth althought i am a bad guy.. Everythings is in your hand.... Only on your own....

OIE , u also... WAKE UP... sure u really like her??? LET ME KNOW....

Suffering in my heart..

2005-05-30T10:46:00.000-07:00

I overcharge a customer... and he find out.. and confront me... i felt very guilty about it... i sorry.... really, i sorry...........

sad sad... my company .... is ..... a ..... black shop............

haiz~~~~ tml off day... watching movie with my sec friends... and is jeff`s birthday...haha
all the best jeffery... u are always my best pal...... anyway without you... i won`t be studying shatec.... take good care... u will sucess...

Felt the force....
Becoming the dark side....
The force came from..
'money'

Wanted to feel the love....
Even we are different..
As long we have hearts on each others..
Will pig fall in love with monkey?
Will monkey accepet pig`s love?
Will they be together even they are different animals???
Let the love prove it...

2005-05-22T07:21:00.000-07:00

At last can update my blog.... Lip, boon, rene and wee... happy lo, go malaysia... must buy things for me le..

so sian.... watch movie star war esp 3.... power, Nice..... see how skywalker become a bad guy... sometime.. it really takes 3 days to become evil, 3 years to become good....

Why these few days... i have nothing to write.... i stare at my com for an hour.... and wrote only a few sentcenes, too busy?? or stree from working.. left me nothing to write... tired... tml still have to wake up early to send boss to airport..

play some music now... give me more feeling to write.....

Life is easy & happy,
But why there are people make it so hard,
Make it so sad,
It is money???
Or it is the fact of this world???
Reality make me fall....
I must work hard for money,
For power, For my family,
For my life.....

Let me fall in love with u.....
Angel,

Mz EvEryThInG In mY LiFe

2005-05-17T08:23:00.000-07:00

Somehow... missing everything i had done.... my army.. my attachment...my secondary... my primary.. my childhood... my everythings...

Are there any regarts??
Hmmm, you can`t tell it,
Until the end.
or death...
Wat if i take my O level..
Will i pass my O level???
Will i get to the poly??
Roads changes,
I may not know u,

Different roads bring u different life...
Never blame the road u taken,
it may be the best road u ever taken,

You may have plan ur path,
But somethings will change it,
Either yourself or the fact....

I walk alone....

Sick came...

2005-05-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

Very long time, i dun have the feeling of sick... i remember i can dun sick for a year... now i think i got a flu... keep on coughing and sniffing... haiz~~~ tired.. tml off, but sick..... never go see docter... VERY SICK>>>>> COUGH* COUGH*

Mother`s day...
I am working, but ask Li fang to help me buy flower... the flower cost $25... actually wanted to bring my mum go makan.. but working..... haiz~~~ sorry mum, i not a good son...

Malaysia Trip,
sorry guys, i think i can`t go... this weekend got promotion again, new car tinting $128... die..

Times

2005-05-09T09:24:00.000-07:00

Times passed like river flows,
Flows so rushing,
Travel a lot of places,
But only once, never twice,
As it passes thought to the places,
Its left marks on some mud some stone,
Some are happy , some sad marks.
Some marks may be ease,
But some can`t,
Hopping only the happy marks left...
Memories is nothing,
Yet its means a lot things...

Wat the hell i writing... Argg, tired... tml suppose to off, but can`t, cos boss wan me to do other things... haiz~~~ Now he keep on asking me to find pple to work... where got???

wan to go for holidays... hahah wan to go thailand... wan to go malayisa, wan to go NZ again.. wan to go japan, wan to go china, wan to go everywhere...

My job

2005-05-05T06:36:00.000-07:00

Tired.... this week no off again.. handle a lot of customer`s unhappy... so poor thing.. something get scold... haiz~~~ not a easy job at all..

Customer service very important...when i make a customer happy, i felt too,i let them know well our product..haiz~~ too bad. our product not so good after all, have to lie...is it wrong???

Anyway, our company doing polishing, tinting, sound insulation, rent car......
tinting is the busiest... during the weekend promotion... like war.. handle 3 customer at a time... tired...earn more money.. so must work harder....

There are many days left,
Left for me to love you.

2005-04-27T06:51:00.000-07:00

Fairy Tale Story,
Always have a happy ending,
True Story,
Will not be the same,
Have happiness have sadness,
Not all stories have happy ending,
Are there really have a happy ending???

Your eyes make me stay there for mins,
Can`t take off my eyes off you,
Your pureness heal my broken heart,
Wanted to stay just by your side,
Protect you from other evil,
My angel,

A peaceful rest..

2005-04-26T09:00:00.000-07:00

At last, been working for 20 days without a day off... tml off... yeah!! tired, very tired, today work till 11+, my company having a grand openinng this weekend, prepare for it... this weekend... BUSY!!!!

Li fang going to work at my place, hope she is doing good there, can learn a lot of things there... haahaa.. Li fang must be work hard, add oil.. i will help u..

lip sin start this attachment... got a lot of beautiful gals???? good lo, why my place dun have??? (Li fang not count as gal) he also must learn and work hard... all the best.. be like them( the engineer.. got car) cough ok liao??? take care..

Boon??? doing wat??? going to army rite??? haha easy la... ORD LOH... u take care too...

Irene??? no internet??? save money la, stop going clubbing la... waste too much there... go there once or twice a month la... go there too much not good.....( this week want to go zouk??? haahaa)
joking, i too tired for it...

Bao Xin... .when going to look for a job??? my company no place for u le... haha maybe next time.. hurry up....

Xing rong.... at my work place liao... must work hard and earn more money, so can get marry with lanies... haha all the best... myself i dun know a lot of things there too... hope can work weel together...

Jian Yu and Gei Xiong ... army??? soon... better earn some money and save it... if not... haha good luck...

You are the sun,
But you left without i knowing,
Left me all alone,
Never even left the moon light for me,
I walk alone in a empty street,
Left the some street light and stars to accompany me,
So dim so dark,
No one to help,
No one to guide,
No one to love,
Lost the way to our dreamland,
Where our fairy tale story should begin,

I walk alone in a empty dream,
You told me,
There is a exit for it,
But u close it,
So quick so cruel,
Without i knowing,
Make me lost my way to our deamland,
A dreamland where happiness should have,

I walk alone in this world
Lost the way to my dreamworld
I found myself landed somewhere i should not,
I tried to fly,
But i fall wthout you catching me,
Bleeding and sadness,
Make my eyes blind,
Even you came,
I can`t see you anymore agian,
You just left behind pain and sadness,
Love is gone,
Happness is gone,
You cried,
But i can`t see,
There is no dream for us.....

Born to fly,
But i fall without my love,

Bleeding

2005-04-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

Bleeding you can`t see,
My feeling hides it.
Pain you can`t hear,
My laugh louder then it.
Sadness you can`t feel,
My smile taken away.

Just watch S- diary... haha a not very bad movie.... haiz~~~
"memories is nothing yet mean a lot"
Nice, yup means a lot of things
have a lot a lot of memories, some makes me wan to go back,
young and happy......
So wish to go back......
But time is past...
when is past, its can`t be present
When is gone, its can`t be go

haiz~~~ ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Fly away,
i just need you,
Fly away,
Just you and me,
Angel with wings...

Needs

2005-04-22T07:59:00.000-07:00

Needs a hug thats bring warmth,
Needs caring to fix my pieces heart,
Needs a kiss to forget my past,
Needs understand to heal my feeling,
Needs a hand to help my stress,
Needs love that bring brightness,
Needs you to bring the shine everyday....

i thought i have the determind,
Learn things and make money,
But i feel something amiss,
i need someone,
someone needs love,
and give love to me,
i just pray to someone,
let me lose the feeling
feeling of lonely...
So i don`t make the wrong choice,
So i don`t need to fall in love,
So i will be happy....
i had not really love someone before,
Not i don`t want,
they never give me the chance,
Feeling so much...
wanted to love someone....
My angel.....

Life is what ....

2005-04-21T09:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm, yesterday sleep at boss` house with one more staff.. went to mambo to chiong till 3pm.. have some fun... tired..

actually suppose to reach home at 8pm...and sleep at 12am... but my boss wan someone to fetch him using his car from JB, volvo... so i am the chosen one.. sad, thought send his car to him, i can go home... No, have some drinks with the malaysian.. tired... thought will be finish around 11pm, he recive call from hs friends.... going to mambo... oh my god.... dun need to go home liao... haiz~~~~ went there around 1+ went in, a lot of chio bu...have some drinks... . NICE~~~~ haha, that quite fun,
Irene, next time can go there, very fun..

haiz~~~ this work makes me dun have time to update my blog.. i now very tired.... very very restless... i hope i just till 50 years old, i dun wan to live too long... so my children dun have any burnen.. just now send boss` uncle back home, he got kidney pro, need to go wash blood(am i rite?? wash blood?? use soap??) no la the NKF one.. poor uncle, he is in his 60s... every mon wed fri, need to wash....blood..and he look weak.. everyday do nothing.. thats life??? no way for me.. haiz~~~ just let me live till 50... is enough..

In mambo, haiz~~~ that u can just dance with any girls, can makes friends, can talk cork, can touch there and here... haiz~~~ no no no for me.. no used to it.. one of my friend is doing that... die, any girl will just come and hug u... i wonder in the future... i will become like my friend??? maybe....
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I still a V*
Still have the first kiss*
hoping to give just
My angel...
My love...
My only wife...

Heart is still broken..

2005-04-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

Haiz~~~ still have then feeling... not for her... so fast. it already 1 month plus.. faster then we are together.. haha these days of working.. i have totally forget her... lost the feeling for her.

hmmm, i gointo change, not the person u used to know, this job going to change me more...
No More Mr Nice Guys, GALS!!

haha... tired, Sian... i lost... wat the hell i am doing.....

just now went out with lip sin and wee yong.. at queen way, brought a shirt for working, actually wan to go west mall to buy someother formal wear, su*k i look Su*k in formal wear.. haha then drove them to fetch hui wen .. going to lip sin house... the rover su*k too.. haiz~~~ SLP
_____________________________________________
My heart is into pieces..
could u fix it...??? angel.

Lifeless..

2005-04-13T18:06:00.000-07:00

So no off this week... so sian, have to work.. if this contiune, i need to change job...

After working a few days of sale.. i reailse i change a bit.. more open mind... i think, more friendly to others i dun know.. haiz~~~ should i go study??? been asking this to myself...

Or earn more money.. and open a resturant??? haiz~~~
______________________________________
u are at somewhere i dun know,
but i know u will beside me in the future,
Take care.

Final Heart

2005-04-13T06:02:00.000-07:00

At last got time to update my blog.. so great... haha Now is 9 plus..

Been working like shit... driving like hell.. always went to jb... yesterday just went, my boss la. ask me to go... tried lo, today still got working...

went jb to drink, went to a pub call De_pub.. a lot of malaysia girls... POWER.. haha

SO tired..

2005-04-10T09:14:00.000-07:00

....ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz... so tired this days.. no time to update my blog... been working till 11 plus... wow sleeping..

To Hui wen,
Yo, lip sin is rite... wat the hell u wan... HEY WAKE UP LA>>>> if u still love him... try to get together... if not... haiz~~~ dun let him control ur life... ITS UR LIFE, SO BE WITH IT>> dun need him.. there are so many guys out there... so dun be afraid.. SO LIVE WELL>>>>>>>>><<><> AND TAKE CARE.

To Bao Xin,
HAIZ~~~ looking for job??? try other jobs first lo.. like me also.. learn cooking, and dun know y i do saleman.. u learn IT, does not mean u need IT as a job... haha.. u still youing, try others things 1st... expose with other things.. haha hey, go makeup, get thin... maybe got chance to be a air strewdress, "MAYBE" HAHAHAHAH

So tired.. haiz~~ not feeling to update more.... zzzzZZZZ~~~~~

Lookin at the past

2005-04-01T07:08:00.000-08:00

Just read my past... in my blog.. so nice, missing wat i done, so wish to go back..... before hurt begin..

Blog.... something to do with ur heart???
Blog.... means ur heart???
Blog....blog out ur feeling???

sometime, i thought... is blog telling the true of a person??? telling the whole feeling of a person???
ANS is NO..
no..unless is a personnal blog.. a true blog is never read by other... whole heart never known by others..
I feel it that way... blog for the others.. is only contain 50% of the person... i think..
............ ..................... ...................
Today,
i been driving.. a van, a merc, a honda civi, hyduna maxtri...
My job.. dun feel to write out more...
.............. ................. ..................
Angel, are u there??
If u need me, let me know too....
I will there too..
After all, we are god create ones..
Feeling is ours weakness...
Miss u even i never saw u before..

Life is good...

2005-03-29T21:04:00.000-08:00

Just came back from 3days 2 nights chalet.. so tired... so sleepy... long time never stay up late in chalet.. miss the time.. when i was young.. a lot alot chalet... with KAP CREWS.. yi bao, edwin, jeremy, valerie, teck hua, kai nam..... many many.... so great.. so fun... hang out together... but...

But, so long never contract liao..... not going to have the fun we used have... not going to be great friends like we used... dun know why.. is it me?? too busy??? Cos, we got wat we wans to do... got our own friends... got own life....

This 8,9,10 april, is edwin`s birthday chalet... Must go... cos really long time never meet up lo... althought dun have the feeling we all used have... know each other thinking... but there is still care and conern.. hope so...

FrIeNdS FoReVEr

BOon... 22 lo... must think lo.. anyway.. all the best.. find a great gal... and get marry soon.. i wan to eat shark fin soup.. and hope to eat red egg soon after the shark fin.... haha

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Life is full of ups and downs....

This tile is jacp msn name.. find that quite meaningful... yup.. life is like that....

Ord lo.... so sian.. NOW, i really step out of everthing... now is getting a career, have family... and so and so.... SIAN.. no more study?? i still used to the life.. of being control, follow the routine.. follow everyone should do... study primary sch at the age of 6 to 12, sec sch 13 to 17, shatec 18 to 19... then NS 19 to 21... so used to do wat they give.. like ns... got detail, i will do , no detail, sack at mtl... so great.. u dun have to make any decison.. just follow... so easy life...

Now... haha.. no choice.. u have nothing to do... there is no more study, no more ns... No routine to follow.. u follow ur own path.. wat path u wan ?? earn money?? or do wat u really wans?? to be truth... i not good at cooking.. i forget everything when i serve my ns.. i dun know how to cook a lot a lot of things... i lousy...

Now... likes to do a lot of things.. wans to know everything... life is too short to give u time to learn, i need more times.. i lazy , so take times... i wan to learn, do, everthings... God or who has the power... GIVE ME MORE TIME... time to love, time to learn.... but .. life is still quite boring... without any..... hmmmm dun know how to say..

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My love is there.................
Yours???

The last words on you

2005-03-26T23:45:00.000-08:00

U told me....
U told most of the pple...
U like me....
Its true???
Or all just a wrong feeling toward me,
Its true,
U never liked me,
Its just wrong feeling,
But u make me like u,
Its true,
I grow feeling for you....

hmmm.... write all these, i think i can go be a writer... so touching... haha... too bad my english not good, if not, i really can write more feeling more touching, wait u all cry... haha
Haiz~~
Still remember where we meet, when we went out... u told me u like me.... why i can`t feel it at all..
Heard from pple u like me...At first, i have no feeling at all, no crush... But after i came back from NZ.... After a few monemts of together... at thiam house, valentine day, UK funfair.. i told myself, control my feeling for u... but can`t, i grow feeling toward u... hopping to get together, like others.. happy together... but never...
U like me??? i been think that since, before and after our relationship, i too foolish or wat... i thought girls should think like tat.. not guys?? i am a love idiot....
It is SO PAINFUL... to see jacp and yao together.. SO ENVY them... they start their relationship around ours too... Why we end up so soon.... really very pain, see my friends, all have their love... i really so SAD... wondering wny we can`t be like them....... Drop some tears.... not for u... just for others..

Been wondering, Did i do something wrong??? God wan to make fun of me??Is it my previous life, i play a lot of others feeling, now i get it back?? 4 steads i had... all like that, should be my fault.... i not good enough...

Haiz~~~ still ok.. i feeling good, anyway i should used to me, myself and i , without any girlfriend.. for another 4yrs?? haha haiz~~~ i Fine....

These are the last for you... no more you in my blog.. not going to write all these.... starting my new life.....

The reason.....

2005-03-25T06:34:00.000-08:00

Reason...
just dun her to get hurt...
just let her forget me..
hear from someone she cried..
when she saw my blog url dun wan her to cry again,
dun wan her to be hurt...
decide to change my blog url,
because of her....
So sorry.. i did not wan her to cry....
just wan her to be happy...
So stop reading my heart...
Forget me....

i will try to forget u too,
Left some feeling behind,
Not i forget to take it back,
It is so hard to take it back,
i so wish you have ur blog,
So wish to know your heart,
is there still feeling left on me???
i will try forget you again..

Somehow, somedays, somemonth,
i think of u again...
hope u dun.... because it hurt when i think of u...
i dun u to be hurt..
find a great bf.... i will miss u again..
need my help call me,
i will be there,
Take good care,
Study hard,
make your dreams come true,
And
GOOD BYE!!!

There still love left on you~~~~

2005-03-23T05:12:00.000-08:00

Haiz~~~ decide t0 change my blog url.... somehow dun wan to let her see wat i wrote here... dun ask me why... i just dun know... i dun wan she will be hurt again ... pls friends, dun let her know... i written all these... just to express my feeling.. not to blame her or say all this is her fault... pls friends.. is no her fault at all...... it is just love.... we are just look for different type of love ....

somehow i thought i forget her liao.... but... haiz~~~ there are still feeling that.... such feeling..
to like her... but somehow... is going to be lost.. hope to bring it back... still wants to know how is she.... hope she is doing well.... haha
hope she can find a great guy.....

times will heal.... times will let me forget her smile... forget wat we miss out... forget wat we done......

wondering... where is my angel??? the one who will help me when i was down... i really need you.... i need your love.... your care......

2005-03-22T02:00:00.000-08:00

If it is true love... u won`t let go so easy... If u really like me.... u won`t left me.... if ur heart still have me.... u won`t forget me.... great to have u by my side, wants to do a lot of things together.... see the stars together, have u lies on my shoulder... watch movie, have u in my arms.... so happy so sweet... all in my dreams.. Now u have your life and i have mine... go separate ways to find something we lost...... Is there still have true love????i just add in a link of photos... haha got some photos on my fishing trip.... take a look

Yoz... last week i going to work for taka.. haha looking for some part time job before i really get into my career, yeah no more boris....

i edit some things on some entry... i never wanted to hurt someone..

Sometime, wonder where is the love??? could someone tells me??? if there is love... we won`t let go so easy... haiz~~~~ these days, love are so easy break... can`t love like tv programme??? where love is true.. die also must be together...if is true that only love can show on tv.... i rather live in the tv... where u can enjoy u and her together happily.. or i too stupid to believe that???

My Fishing Trip!!!!

2005-03-17T21:41:00.000-08:00

These days... i had go fishing, in tanjung pinang... hahaha.. for 2 days,,, just came back no 180305... got a lot of fish.... Ikan ikan... haha.. fishing the whole night.. best caught for me is haha 4-5kg fish.. BIGGGGGGGGG..

Now at irene house with boon... irene la, must thaks boon... he never sleep for days.. for ur things.. haha

tired tired. been working... so sleepy... wan to sleep...... no time to update my blog....... next time!!!

Thanks!!!! ALL FRIENDS!!

2005-03-12T06:14:00.000-08:00

YoZ!!! i back to normal.. i am single again... hahahaaha.
Haiz~~ these days.. been thinking... been wondering..... somehow i will find an answer myself...

I will try to stand up no matter what is the ending, just let me fall in love again..

Haha, these day i realise i still got some friends... some great friends i have, some best friends when i needs them...

Some friends... Lip sin and boon(ktv, sing out the feeling!!!!) Li ei(thanks for encourage me, i thought u forget me liao) Shan xiong and gei xiong(saw my blog and ask me out, thks ) Li fang(can tell u wat i feel) bao xing(tell wat to do) irene( accompany me for dinner), steve( thanks for coming late night to hear my words) queenie(keep on reading my blog and a lot other friends...... so many friends... if i still feeling down, make my life sad, i will let u all down... hahaha so i will be happy... Life still goes on and on.. thanks!!!!!!!!!
somemore someone adrime me... haha lip sin`s niece.. cynthia likes me.. hahaha she only 5 yrs old... joking la~~~ tke care~~~

His HeArT Is bRoKeN

2005-03-11T01:13:00.000-08:00

On 070305
@ nightime
He is now in a KTV room with his friends,
He knows today he will have answer,
An answer he does not really wants or know,
But an answer must be known today,
He wanted to meet her to have a talk,
But she did not want it, she just want a chat on the phone,
She said she have something to said to him.
Somehow he knows what she want to said.

He went and search a quiet place,
He sat on the staircase, take out his 6100 out,
He thought for a while, before he handles her question,
He called, he and she chat for a while,
He knows both of them need the answer,
He ask "what you want to say???"
She reply " dun know how to say leh"
Both of them kept quiet for a while,
He ask "is it we are not look like we are together???"
She reply "yes...."
Both of them agree.
They chat for a while again cos they may not chat on the phone again.

Put down his phone, sat on the staircase.
Tears almost won him, but he told himself,
You may see him drink, sad, unhappy, laughing, kee siao,
But you will never see his tears dropping,
He went back to the KTV room,
And he smile and said to his friends " i break liao"
His friends never said much thing,
Just want him to sing,
He sing the song(Song on this blog)
Now he know why singing can relieve some pain,
Because you can sing out your feeling,
But somehow just like beer, you can forget it for some while.

After KTV session,
He went home,
As he walks home,
He wonder why it ends up like that,
Is it he never put in effort??
or he is too serious??
He can`t feel the love she wanted to give, or she never??
He asked her a question, a question which is very important,
Her answer that can make he be stronger,
Answer that he can hold on to the relationship,
Answer that he can put in more,
But the answer is DUN KNOW
Two words that really hurts him a lot.....
He didn`t wan to think more about it,
The more he think the more pain he going to have...

The next day morning ,
He wake up with a dream, is her again,
He never thought much of it,
He went for jogging,
He runs, not because he can run away from all this,
It just makes him feel better, but he really wan to forget it,
Swear away some pain, he hopes.....

Just Him

For the 1st girlfriend he had,
The 1st day he and she together,
He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish.
"i wish she is the 1st and the last girlfriend i going have,
Let us be happy"
The god gave him the answer after 2 days.

For the 2nd girlfriend he had,
The 2nd day he and she together,
He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish,
"i wish she is the 2nd and the last girlfriend i going to have,
Let us be loving"
The god gave him the answer after 13 days.

For 3rd girlfriend he had,
The 3rd day he and she together,
"He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish,
"i wish she is the 3rd and the last girlfriend i going to have,
Let us be joyful"
The god gave him the answer after 15 days.

For 4th girlfriend he had,
The 4th day he and she together,
He pray to the god, hopping god can grant his wish,
"i wish she is the 4th and the last girlfriend i going to have,
Let us be truthful"
The god gave him the answer after 17 days.

For the 5th girlfriend he going to have,
He pray to the god, really hope god grand his wish,
"i wish you could take away my feeling called love,
Let me be a no feeling guy, just dun wan to be hurt again"
The god give him the answer.....

HiS HeArt Is BrOkEN...

Him to all girls,
If you dun really likes him....
PLs dun be together with him....
He just like any other guys out there,
who need love too...
if u can`t give him that..
pls igrone him.
He just dun wan to be hurt again…..

He never blame her at all...............................
Is just love...

ORD LO!!!!!!

2005-02-28T21:19:00.001-08:00

This fri... i been waiting for 2 yrs... END OF ARMY LIFE??? haha no la still got re-service...

so happy.. i serve my 2yrs for the goverment... 2 yrs not long no short.. i can do many things lo.. can learn more things in hotel.... do more studies... but no choice... to protect our land... i still thinking.. if sg in war, will i stay and fight ??? or run away??? ... heehee.. to my family.. to my country.. i will fight..

yesterday,

i recive a call from my officer, saying i got award... huh?? telling to get to there place.... i get OUTSTANDING SOLDIER.. it came with a plug and a cer.. presented by my co(comander office).. so happy... thinking wat i have done?? mc i still go for NDP... hehee.. thinking back my bmt... that time... i also wanted to get platoon best.. too bad... given to my best fellow, ah beng..haha

2yrs of NS... (to all my friends who have not been in it)

training was tough.. in my bmt... got range, camp, throw genage, always knock it down, kana sa bo..... a lot alot of stuff. learn as it grow, u have to bath faster.. do things fast... team work... learn to take care urself.. take care others.. althought everything was tough and suck... guess wat.. i miss everything.... miss those days.. we have fun as we goes.. u can see who are really ur friends.. die! die together!!! haha my bmt buddies(vincent, poon, don glun, jackson,kain chye,kumaran, theepan, wee tze,) all my section 2 bunkmates.... hahahaha miss the old days...

we are engineers.. 30SCE(30t singapore combat engineer)

too bad, after bmt , i posted out.. if not i sure kana porieer 1.. haha.

post to driver..