[Born To Fly But I fall Without My Love`]

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Chef or a saleman??

last evening, i met steve and stanley, stanley is one of my boss in L`emzonie( last time i work, a pasta resturant) . he offer me a 1.4k to be chef de partie... haha hmm am i going back in white?? kitchen?? 1.4k is quite high in the market.... but not as high as my pay now.. but working hrs will not be so long, work load won`t be so much.... it just getting hotter only... hmm give him the answer on mid of july...But working in kitchen give me more secure in my career, instead of my current job, dun know when i will kanna sack.. no prospect there... nothing much to learn... haiz~~~~ hmmm life are so lost to me now... i have to chose my path, where should i stand?? when should i walk?? who should i meet???

My story, my family, my mum...
Now is 510am, i can`t sleep well, haiz~~~ maybe sleep too much in the afternoon.
hmmm... nothing much to said, times really flies, now is going to july,
Went to a cousin`s wedding. saw my relative.. it been 3 yrs i never saw them, miss the time when we are small, we always play at ah gong house.... but things change , when i was 13, my mother separate with my dad. so it been long i never saw them.. only once in 2002 new year time.. pay a visit on them... haha... i just realise i got a new baby cousin. he only 3 yrs old.. haha cute guy.. hug him for a while.. In the wedding, when my ah gong saw me, he cried... dun know why.. maybe i too handsome.. haha anyway remember my mum told me that my ah gong dun wan us... maybe he cried because i still willing to visit,, haiz~~~ anyway all the things happen liao.. all is past, dun wish to bring out.. just hold his hand... ni hao ma?? must take care...
hmm... my father still the same, haiz~~~ dun know wat to say... i hope i won`t be like him, i will work hard... will not be playboy and slacker, lazy like him(that y my mother separate with him) not a good husband, always bully my mum.. anyway since the separate, i never call him pa pa... i know my dad was dead...... i dun really hate him, without him, i will not be here.. but he should be happy to have a good wife like my mum... he should be very sorry to my mum.. not to me... my mum suffer a lot... so is my turn to let my mum be happy.. sorry mum, i never really care for you... but i will....

carving itself again at 1:39 PM